this semester is really bad and it happens to be the last one. projects no longer seem interesting and fun where i used to be very energetic and pro-active when there's one. i became lazy, uninterested and highly unmotivated to start working on one. what's more to initiated and give directions. i have turned from a leader into a team follower.

i declare graduation when i submitted the FYP Report.

I am a (soon-to-be) Graduate

We are stuck at the project on Energy Economics. It's all becos of Chang who gave the idea of studying the correlation of political development and energy consumption in ASEAN. after 2 weeks of discussion, research, discussion, debate, research, stoning at starbucks, we decided to narrow down to finding on the privitisation of the energy sector in ASEAN countries.

and it's due tml at 5pm. We need 2000 words more. hope that the model i proposed work. YES.

MODEL = REGRESSION

after fooling around with SAS for fyp, i have fell in love with running regression.


Model 1
EC = GDP + Privistisation (DV)

Model 2
GDP = EC + Privitisation (DV)


Good Luck (:


Yet another sleepless night..


oh yar, no more london bridge or kola bear.

I must be bored, to come out with a Publication for this project.
I did it in 2 hours

It looks quite professional right?

Anyway they did not contribute much, what's more to scream at one of them who chose not to submit her part to me. Dare her to ask me to forgive her. She must be retarded. I hate Vietnam student. While the other girl, she is equally a piece of shit. She was assigned to capture a video on NTU and the lab, yet she gave me a mere 20second video showing JUST the logo of NTU and with someone singing in the background. I chose to submit this project One day late, I do not care about their grades, for I have already S/U this module. May her pimples on her face grow more by the day.





Two more projects + Presentation and I'm done in NTU!

Energy Economics + Current Topics


* * * * * * * * * * * * *


London Bridge or Kola Bear?

From Prof Chang Y H (Energy Economics)!!!

I shall not offer him candy the next lesson.

Finally FYP is over

I chopped off my hair on Sat with a nice Hair Treatment @ Ricky's.

FYP is madness, it caused my skin to look super dull bcos I did not cleanse my face for two weeks. I ended up with super dark panda eyes and puffiness under my eyes as seen in this picture below. And have much research and observations, I learnt that this is NOT eyebag. Eyebag is something that puff up when u do not smile, the area directly under your eyes is swollen and puffy. For my case, it is because my skin is loose near the cheek area. Hence, the extra fats ended up under the eye area. So now I am doing eye treatment everyday with lots of masking. At least my skin is having its natural glow now. Don't ask why I did not cleanse my face for two weeks, I was so tired and lazy. The thought of having to maintain my daily regime of the usual 9 steps make me feel exhausted. Anyway, I'm glad that there wasn't any many breakout, only 2 white heads near my left eyes that I ended up squeezing so hard that there is red scarring now. So I am applying lots of cream and masking everyday, hoping that it will good away very soon..

Anyway, I have ordered products for eye treatment.

Mainly to cure these 3 major eye care problems:

(1) Eye Bags
(2) Dark Circles
(3) Puffiness (due to loose skin near cheek area)

I will post the products in April 2009, please visit http://princess-sab.livejournal.com








Finally I got my Little Black Riding Hood (:

The Big Buttons and the Babydoll cutting with a cute little bow hidden behind.

I always wanted a Trench Coat like the one Little Red Riding Hood wore in the storybook, hence I named it the Little "Red" Riding Hood.




The price in Singapore is extremely high that I would never bear to pay for one. Hence I got Mama to hunt down one from her recent holiday trip to China. And she managed to get this really nice piece. I heart it. It shall be my work coat in future.





Mama got another one in white, this one is slightly shorter but it looks equally smart.



Sometime in Jan/Feb 2009

The Blue Belted Trench Coat from Gap
Nope, I did not buy it.




[Post Exam Activities]

Hair Treatment
Pedicure/Medicure
Facial to squeeze out major embedded blackheads/whiteheads
If There's Season with Paul and Grace on 30 April 2009, Thursday 8PM




We are going for a Holiday in May 2009 (:

Location = Depends on Paul's PB

Ranging from Batam to London

please give him a 1.5 months and he promised to take me to London (:

April's FREE Random Giveaway


Cresson Soft Peeling Gel
Lotus BB Cream
Esthemore Foam Cleanser
Yeblang Sensitive Suncream

Here

To celebrate the submission of FYP

THE MODEL

logEXP_t =a₀ + a₁logExR_t + a₂logEXTdd_t + a₃logFDI_t + a₄log(CPI_F/CPI_D)_t + a₅log(WAGE_F/WAGE_D) _t + a₆TIME + a₇WTO + ε_t

where EXP_t is China’s export value;

ExR_t is the exchange rate of the RMB;

EXTdd_t is the external demand for China’s exports;

FDI_t is China’s FDI inflows;

(CPI_F/CPI_D) _t is the consumer price index ratio;

(WAGE_F/WAGE_D) _t is the wage ratio;

TIME is the time trend;

WTO is the accession into WTO;

ε_t is the error term.

This Model is CoPyRight [Liu, Lim, Ng & Tay 2009]
Do NOT attempt to steal our model for your report haa

Graduation Project submitted to the School of Humanities and Social Sciences,

Nanyang Technological University in partial fulfillment of the requirements for the

Degree of Bachelor Arts in Economics.

Academic Year 2008/2009

A. Prof Liu Yun Hua (aka Ah Liu) : The one who ignored us in the initial stage of FYP but gave us all his time during the last month of FYP. We met him almost every day and he sat in his office to wait for us to knock on his door. He totally ROCK!!

Li Mei: The one who sings and entertain us during the stressful meeting and on the way to school in the little red car.

Davina: The one who drives us to school early in the morning from Yishun's Northpoint mac to the ulu NTU!

Me: I could only sponsor the two girls with mask to help in the lack of sleep.

YES! I dragged and dragged and he finally can't take it. He is washing his own clothes. YUPPIES! And i washed my full load of clothes today finally.

Last night the market was closed and I had to cook my own dinner. I made tom yum bee hoon with crabstick, meatball, veg and tofu.

I must say NTUC Pringles' 6 in one box is really value for money @ S$9.90 per box.

Paul bought a 2nd box and gave me 3 of them. but he took the cheddar cheese and gave me SOur cream + original. Cheddar cheese is super yummy man. i was given the left over tube from the first box he bought. BOO! fighting over chips with the boyfriend. i whine and he wanted to give me the new cheddar cheese but i decided to be nice and make do with the 1/2 tube he ate.


I am making dinner tonight cos he is popping by! I shall make some nice yummy soup .. meanwhile i have tons of work to do.

I hate vietnam exchange student, they suck to the core. Irritating Free-rider. this is the THIRD time she never submit her work to me. I sent a wu-di email to everyone and she sent me her part very soon later..


Today: Do housework + Research + Think of what to cook tonight for Paul
Thursday: Sch + Research
Fri: 11am Energy Econs meeting in sch / 6pm Current Topics Meeting in NLB


No more LONDON trip.. he says we can't afford to enjoy truely.. we may go to Auckland or Sydney... there goes my Chanel and Longchamp bag. NZ and Sydney is damn boring can.. u see nothing but mountain, grass, sheep and house everywhere.. boo!

This is the 3rd post of the day.. sth is wrong



I could only hear the sound of the fan and the sound of the keypad when i am typing away.


Home Alone Day 1
He came over at 5.15pm but the moment he reached he asked for help, related to work. and then he began making lots of phone calls.. finally done at 6.30pm, he said he will leave at 6.35pm. I asked if he could stay till 7pm. he had a dinner to attend to. he stayed till 6.50+ "I don't want to be the last, if not I have no place to sit" so i conclude getting a seat is more important than me. i hate those brother's dinner. always arrange at the wrong day and time.
I recalled the first birthday he celebrated with me, one of his bro is getting married. He chose the dinner over me. so we had a lunch celebration, there was no lovely romantic dinner.
so I made spag with hotdog for dinner for myself. i felt rather sad.



Home Alone Day 2
Skype with my parents at night.


Home Alone Day 3
I tot i lost my house key and i was so panic. I called paul for help. In the end, I found it under the sofa in the living room.
I could not sleep and woke up between 2-5am watching youtube.


Home Alone Day 4
I killed two black creatures in my house for the first time in my life.
usually i shout for help and pa will come killing them.
I cleaned up the house and folded the clothes.
Changed my bedsheet, clean the floor, wash the fan and tidy the house.





10 more days...

Everyone is checking on me every night.
Neighbour from the 15th floor, come walking her dog every evening on the 13th floor to check if i'm home. remind me to lock the gate, take my dinner, peeked into my house to see if there's someone else.
Kor will call to see i'm home by 9pm. Today he came down to checked if i'm home. he peeked into my house too to check if there's somebody hiding.




how i wish there's someone hiding in my room..


but He won't for sure.



I am alone at home, hearing the fan blade rotates.
any additional noise, i am scared.

many people believe that there is this honeymoon period in a relationship. where the guy will be extremely good to the girl. and once after this period, the guy will be neutral or normal.


work is killing him and making him extremely tired. he has less energy for me. he appears to be less caring. he came over today to send me food. i wanted to hug him tight and tell him i miss him. yet he looks so tired. right after eating, he went to take a nap. i wanted to talk to him, ask if we could plan a holiday. he looked at the piece of paper, i forgot what he said, but i knew he wasn't concentrating. then he went to work. it felt totally different today. it was a rush, it gave me a feeling that he came just for the sake of coming. not because he really wanted. he did it because he had to. or because i wanted him to. i was a little sad, he said he would arrive before 12pm but at 11am, he texted to say he fell aslp and would only reach by 1pm. perhaps work is really taking up lots of his energy. yet he doesnt share with me his unhappiness at work.. who am i now?


how i love the days when he wakes up very early and pop by almost every sat morning to take me for breakfast and send me to work at kawai before he goes home no matter how tired he was... now i had to beg and give a reason if i wanted him to come over..


i admit that i am not an independent girlfriend. i long for his attention. though there are many couples who only get to meet once in 2 weeks or once a month, we get to meet up on average once a week. sometimes for a quick dinner, sometimes for a nice date out walking randomly on the street.


there is a upcoming musical in april/may. i told him since last year that i wanted to catch it and i think he would love it. i asked for a date to attend so that i could get tickets and wg is offering me some additional discount. but i dare not choose a date even on his scheduled off day, i'm afraid he doesnt want or there's some random event. i could only ask him nearer to date.

I am eating $2 Mixed Veg Rice dinner almost every night now. cheap and filling.
The same dish every time: Potato + Cabbaged + Long Bean


i realised my saving is nv growing.

Mum gave me $200 for these 2 weeks when they are away.
I gave her S$100 worth of RMB but realised kor gave them S$1000 worth of RMB
Yet i told her to take it with her.

Income this month: S$700 + S$200 (Mum)
Expenses: $100 (Transport) + $100 (insurance) + $100 (Food) + S$250 (catering) + $100 (Mum) + $69 x 2 (Travel Insurance for parents) + S$100 (worth of beauty freebies to people for advertisement purpose)


[ i miss the days where i was rich ]


looks like london is very far away

in the midst of rushing assignments and meeting deadlines, i get to enjoy the peaceful days at home all alone by myself.. i'm glad that i have this little break to breathe and do my own work without any restrictions.

met up with edwin the other day in sch for lunch as he was there for some work. we were chatting about sch, his soon-to-be-born little baby boy, my graduation, life, universal studios in sg, his phd program etc.. and we ended with the topic of a graduation trip.. i told him that i had no plans for a trip.. i can't plan schedule in advance as mr boyfriend's work is shift based and he doesn't want to take leave.. oh well.. sometimes i hope i can have a new boyfriend who can give me his weekends each week so that i do not have to count his shift work every now and then to predict when is the next meet up. i did mention abt wanting to go on a trip in may with him but he kept telling me to discuss only in april. oh welll..

anyway edwin was telling me that he had 50,000 + krisflyer points but as his wife is due-ing so, he can't go on a holiday and so i suggested him to sell it away. he stared at me and i was so stupid that i shld him for an offer. then he laughed and said, "i am looking at u." haa. i laughed.

he got me excited and agreed he would sell me for S$200 and i am to pay for all additional taxes. he kept emphasing on how i should use these points and fly business class to japan or hongkong and stay in the best hotel to enjoy high life for one week.

i got a little excited and after lunch, i pop by the library to check out the website. guess what? Krisflyer is having a 10 year promotion, selected flights at 50% off points and all other flights at 25%...

i was looking thru the list for the 50% promotion and i saw LONDON!!! i immediately thought of CHANEL, H&M, LongChamp.. ahhh.. happiness.

i did a calculation and i only needed 35000 points after the promotion. taxes + charges are around S$475 recently.. which means i only had to pay S$675 for a ticket to LONDON two way by SQ.. yuppie..

i called up the CS and checked, i had to add my name to his list which is FOC but he would like me to remove my name immediately after the trip and that will cost either 3000 points OR US$30. fair enough.

so i texted paul.. and asked, he did not get pretty very excited..

anyway i returned for my fyp meeting and told davina and limei, they got excited too and told me it's a super good deal and i should jsut go for it. but i need a travel partner and i don't think my parents would let me travel solo.. ahh...

the evening i went for a drama centre gathering.. roy was there and i casually asked if he is free in may and would like to go to LONDON, and he said he is going.. haa it's fated right? he paid S$1200++ for air fare by cathy and is going solo but meeting a friend for a couple of days in LONDON. i asked if i could tagged along and he said ok. as long as i am ok with staying in the same hotel room with him that has a very small bathroom. i told him np :)

to be safe, i asked carene too, she got excited as well and i told her to check with her dad if she could use his points.. just in case paul doesn't wan to go with me, then carene is next on the list if not it would be roy.

backup plan, if i can't go to london.. here is a list of countries i have selected, help me decide pls.. drop a message in the c-box on the LHS. Thanks!

Points available: 52000 + US$30 (removal of name from his list)


London: 35000 after 50% + S$475 tax
I would travel to Paris. Eurostar tix round trip at 59 Pound (promo)
Chanel!!! LongChamp!! H&M!! ahhh


Tokyo: 33750 after 25% + S$373 tax
I would shop to death! haa maybe i can pop by kimiko's place
Either solo in May/June or Dec with Ger. Unless paul wants to go with me


Zurich: 35000 after 50% + S$395 tax


Bangkok: 18750 after 25% + S$145 tax
Maybe London then bangkok in June, so i have to top up in cash
shop + eat + shop + eat
OR 2 tickets to Bangkok? Paul + me? or Ger + Me?


Chiang Mai: 12500 after 50% (Silkair) + S$145
2 tickets for me and paul OR me and carene.


[In order of my choice]

Someone make my wish come through please
It's either Paul Pan, Carene Chew or Roy Ng.


I would love to travel to LONDON, and tour Europe.
Walk into Chanel and buy something, it's doesnt matter what, as long it's Chanel.
Buy my Longchamp Bags.
Shop in H&M
Enjoy a cup of coffee along the street
Travel to Brussel for my Smurfs.
Watch a musical - Lion King

well done, she repacked my entire wardrobe.



STOP CONTROLLING MY LIFE!



I HATE U!

Fairy godmother..

grant me a wish..


May my prince appear quickly and take me away
In this little cottage of mine, I live unhappily almost everyday.



If only they could be more understanding, listen to me, accept my response, stop giving me names, stop insisting their china's behaviours, i will not stop crying, i will not stop thinking of dying, how i wish i could just run away from home or just end my life. i wanna leave them as far as possible.






left house at 9am this morning to sch for fyp. at 9pm, i got back in my neighbourhood, i walked to the bakery to get bread for them, i remembered to go get sth as requested. i called many times to ask the name of the specific objects, no one pick up. i was scared, i do not want more trouble. i had enough of things to worry. i continued to call but it was not answered. i searched a few medical halls but the usual shop has already closed for. i did not want to get scolding when they get home because i am totally exhausted from the long week of work + sickness, i just want a peaceful life these few days. and so i went to the last medical hall that was opened and get the items.



i got home, hungrily but exhausted i munched my bread as my dinner alone in this little cottage of mine. .. soon they came home, they ask me to open the door for them. and no i did not do that, i was totally exhausted. they made nasty comments when they got home. i am too tired to response. i told them there was a beehive but one made nasty comment, the other did not get my message. ...... .......




i just wan to die now, please.

just kill me






who can i talk to now? no one seems to understand me and willing to listen to me patiently. paul will tell me his reasons and make me convince with his reasons. i only want a warm warm hug and a nice shoulder to bury my face in.. looks like only little fatty can fit this job.. now u know why i ask for a bear for me to hug.. for i am as lonely as the beggars on the street, longing for someone who understand me completely.

little dairy, i can only tell u this sad sad night of mine. for there are enough tears to cleanse my face twice tonight, i am alone in this little kingdom of mine.


can i just disappear from this world tomorrow? i really wish..

S U P E R B U S Y

I'm still suffering from Flu and slight cough

This is the first time in my entire 4 years in NTU that I am more than willing to turn up in sch everyday for FYP! Glad to have great and fun group mates - Ms Davina and Ms Limei. More importantly our super supportive Prof Liu Yun!!! He is soo nice.

I need more time, there are too much things for me to handle at this moment.

I can't imagine when my parents are away for the next 2 weeks, how can I find time to do laundry, ironing and clean up the house while handling the tons of work.

[Things to Do]

6 March 2009/Friday

FYP Regression/Music Toddlers Lesson Plan

7 March 2009/Sat

Happy 20th Months Paul :)

To teach Music Toddlers/Meetup with Geraldine for her Cresson Soft Peeling Gel+Isiloe Mask Pack/FYP Regression

Do up BioBiz Individual Assignment that was due 2 weeks ago! Haa Prof allows me to resubmit with some marks deduction. I have already S/U this module, I just need to pass BUT I will do a good project for HIM!!

8 March 2009/Sun

LCMS 10.30-4.30pm! (Killer Sunday)

9 March 2009/Mon

HE310 Energy Econs Meeting 11.30am/HE310 Energry Econs Lecture 12.30-3.30pm

TBC FYP Meeting 3.30pm

LCMS 7-9.15pm

10 March 2009/Tue

HE411 Lecture 8.30-11.30 (I may skip, too early)

11 March 2009/Wed

BioBiz Meeting 3.30pm

12 March 2009/Thurs

Submit HE310 Energy Ppt Slides to Prof

Keane's Music Lesson 6-6.45pm
Belinda's Music Lesson 7.30-8.15pm

13 March 2009/Fri

SUBMIT FYP REPORT TO LIU!!!!!

14 March 2009/Sat

Theory Exam for my 3 lovely students
Hope they do very well, I worked very hard to push them

15 March 2009/Sun
LCMS

16 March 2009/Mon
HE310 Energy Presentation!

This message is for the Boyfriend:

Boo! Thank you for being there for me dearest. Please take care of yourself these few weeks. I will be super super busy and may be quite grumble. You are really so nice and patient. I love talking to you. Thank you for listening to my nonsense all these while. I can't wait for my bear hug!! I will work hard and please don't give up too. Look forward to our little trip in May. (:

love, ur irritating girl