many people believe that there is this honeymoon period in a relationship. where the guy will be extremely good to the girl. and once after this period, the guy will be neutral or normal.


work is killing him and making him extremely tired. he has less energy for me. he appears to be less caring. he came over today to send me food. i wanted to hug him tight and tell him i miss him. yet he looks so tired. right after eating, he went to take a nap. i wanted to talk to him, ask if we could plan a holiday. he looked at the piece of paper, i forgot what he said, but i knew he wasn't concentrating. then he went to work. it felt totally different today. it was a rush, it gave me a feeling that he came just for the sake of coming. not because he really wanted. he did it because he had to. or because i wanted him to. i was a little sad, he said he would arrive before 12pm but at 11am, he texted to say he fell aslp and would only reach by 1pm. perhaps work is really taking up lots of his energy. yet he doesnt share with me his unhappiness at work.. who am i now?


how i love the days when he wakes up very early and pop by almost every sat morning to take me for breakfast and send me to work at kawai before he goes home no matter how tired he was... now i had to beg and give a reason if i wanted him to come over..


i admit that i am not an independent girlfriend. i long for his attention. though there are many couples who only get to meet once in 2 weeks or once a month, we get to meet up on average once a week. sometimes for a quick dinner, sometimes for a nice date out walking randomly on the street.


there is a upcoming musical in april/may. i told him since last year that i wanted to catch it and i think he would love it. i asked for a date to attend so that i could get tickets and wg is offering me some additional discount. but i dare not choose a date even on his scheduled off day, i'm afraid he doesnt want or there's some random event. i could only ask him nearer to date.

I am eating $2 Mixed Veg Rice dinner almost every night now. cheap and filling.
The same dish every time: Potato + Cabbaged + Long Bean


i realised my saving is nv growing.

Mum gave me $200 for these 2 weeks when they are away.
I gave her S$100 worth of RMB but realised kor gave them S$1000 worth of RMB
Yet i told her to take it with her.

Income this month: S$700 + S$200 (Mum)
Expenses: $100 (Transport) + $100 (insurance) + $100 (Food) + S$250 (catering) + $100 (Mum) + $69 x 2 (Travel Insurance for parents) + S$100 (worth of beauty freebies to people for advertisement purpose)


[ i miss the days where i was rich ]


looks like london is very far away