Fairy godmother..

grant me a wish..


May my prince appear quickly and take me away
In this little cottage of mine, I live unhappily almost everyday.



If only they could be more understanding, listen to me, accept my response, stop giving me names, stop insisting their china's behaviours, i will not stop crying, i will not stop thinking of dying, how i wish i could just run away from home or just end my life. i wanna leave them as far as possible.






left house at 9am this morning to sch for fyp. at 9pm, i got back in my neighbourhood, i walked to the bakery to get bread for them, i remembered to go get sth as requested. i called many times to ask the name of the specific objects, no one pick up. i was scared, i do not want more trouble. i had enough of things to worry. i continued to call but it was not answered. i searched a few medical halls but the usual shop has already closed for. i did not want to get scolding when they get home because i am totally exhausted from the long week of work + sickness, i just want a peaceful life these few days. and so i went to the last medical hall that was opened and get the items.



i got home, hungrily but exhausted i munched my bread as my dinner alone in this little cottage of mine. .. soon they came home, they ask me to open the door for them. and no i did not do that, i was totally exhausted. they made nasty comments when they got home. i am too tired to response. i told them there was a beehive but one made nasty comment, the other did not get my message. ...... .......




i just wan to die now, please.

just kill me






who can i talk to now? no one seems to understand me and willing to listen to me patiently. paul will tell me his reasons and make me convince with his reasons. i only want a warm warm hug and a nice shoulder to bury my face in.. looks like only little fatty can fit this job.. now u know why i ask for a bear for me to hug.. for i am as lonely as the beggars on the street, longing for someone who understand me completely.

little dairy, i can only tell u this sad sad night of mine. for there are enough tears to cleanse my face twice tonight, i am alone in this little kingdom of mine.


can i just disappear from this world tomorrow? i really wish..