i'm sorry

it must be stupid to think that i can easily find someone better than u
it must be idiotic to think that u are not there for me
it must be silly to vent all my anger on u
it must be crazy to think that u mind travelling just to meet me



[your understanding and patience make me feel small and weak]


yet i behave like one ignorant baby


i should not grumble when we had only that little time together weekly
i should not complain when u r exhausted from work and wish to rest
i should not protest when we do not get to do many things together
i should not take revenge on you when you care so much for me
i should not be upset when you do not send me home


for all that you have done, i know you love me most

u make a point to wake me up every morning when i need to go to sch or teach
u explain things slowly so that i understand the reasons behind them
u talk in the most gentle voice even when u r sad so that i get the points right
u chat with me when i'm bored or pissed off but i screamed at u instead
u buy me everything that i wish for or anything i randomly mention
u feed me everything that i want so that i will be happy
u came all the way to send me home when i'm very sick
u came all the way to send food when i'm in a very bad mood
u cab down to give me a hug when i'm alone and wanted u
u chose to forgive me when i make very nasty comment
u support me in all the stupid things i do
u r the man i will believe in

xxxxx

i'm sorry