life is beautiful because she believes... someday, someone will return and maybe her wishes will come true. once found but lost. recently found and lost again.. she believes she will find the missing piece in her life.. "The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, nor touched, but are felt in the heart"
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
* 1st session successful
* medifund submitted
* TCM medicine -10 days pack - collected
* Cooking Book borrowed + bought
* 2nd TCM appointment booked! (if only u noe how hard it was to get thru them)
* flew for the citibank interview as pa's session was delayed, i did well again BUT turned down 2nd interview on the spot cos i needed to rush back to TTSH immediately cos pa was almost done with his session. they were soo nice and understanding, will reschedule for me when i am available ~ aww!
* came home saw another interview invitation. *tsk tsk (is the economy really picking up or my resume is so good that so many people are calling me these few days) I turned down one this morning cos it's insurance oops!
* many good news recently - doc says aiming for cure rather than to prolong. will proceed for surgery after 4 sessions.
* i need to save up for TCM cos thats the main cash component now, average $200 per visit, hence i need $800-1000 per month. *finger crossed, shld be ok i guess. shall go back to eat $2 rice everyday then.
alright i am very tired, running here and there these few days. got to work tomorrow. to shower then to bed. i shall read CFA vol2 tml cos part 2 of vol1 is on stats which i hate hahaha oops!
though there were tears tonight, i hope we will stay united and create a peace loving environment.
important dates to rmb
9/04 - 2nd TCM
14/04 - TTSH consultation
15/04 - TP! pray that i passed 1st time pls then i can drive dad around, don't have to trouble uncle.
gd night world, it's 8-5.30pm tml.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
still deciding on a water filter. uv sterilisation? alkaline/acidic water? so many different products. since water is to be consumed, i dare not buy any product on the shelf. i still need more information.
ordered Osim iLife in white, will collect it tml and paul gonna send it over.
mum is so stubborn, told her NO SALT and NO SUGAR. she doesn't believe. SALT and SUGAR bad for the cells, because they feed and grow bigger. of course we want to KILL the bad cells. mummy just won't listen. I am so tired of telling her NO.
i am still finding jobs, find more money, trying to find time to read thru a few pages of CFA.
I am doing a Coach Spree in April. Only small accessories taking in. Will spree at my usual site. Update once i settle very important stuff next week.
1st Chemo session/Medifund/Interview/Driving lessons
i am actually quite scared. read that it could be stage 4 as it has spread to the bone..
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CHANEL DRILL FLAP for sale
Bought from London Selfridges in 2009. Retailing for S$4000+ in Singapore.
Authencity Card/Box/Ribbon/Flower/Paper Bag provided
Starting $2500, highest bidder win. Meetup to collect, cash and carry.
End 11/04/2010 @ 1159Hours
email to sabrinatay_1985@yahoo.com
In excellent condition, no scratches or smell. Only carried it thrice.
Perforated, lambskin with silk lining.
It's my baby but you know why I need to sell it, I need money for my dad's treatment.
The buckle was replaced in Chanel Singapore last year, they imported a new one from Paris and replaced it for me as one crystal fell off.
Pls don't ask me if it is authentic. This is my dream bag. I handcarried it from London.
PS: If anyone is interested in a Burberry Beach Tote, I can put up for sale. Email me if interested.
Saturday, March 27, 2010

Friday, March 26, 2010
he has fever tonight, i forced him to go. finally we went after me talking for an hour
mum suddenly felt giddy, i left her at home and went with uncle.
bro has cough, asked him to stay home and rest.
doc says lung infected (again), got to run some tests
admission was very fast, in at 10.30am, everything done in 2hours, including getting a bed
perhaps it was due to his urgent case.
nurses and doctor were rather rude. maybe they were tired, i don't blame them
after attending to you, they totally ignored you when you try to ask them some questions.
no eye contact even when u stood in front of them, waving and talking to them. eyes were far away attending to the very next patient.
dad looked worried, tried my best to comfort him.
mum doesn't sound ok when i got home, tried my best to explain to her. hope she would be less stubborn and listen to me. No means no.
gonna apply for MediFund. will talk to the relevant department on sat/sun, hope the funds would help to pay for the medical fee, otherwise i would have to start borrowing from the loan shark.
cfa/driving/dad/mum/work/money
can i do it? pls pray for me
almost died today when they wanted to schedule a last minute 2 week training starting tml. i need to be free next wed so i could be there for his first session. after a mad rush to find someone willing to change my off day with me, the scheduler shocked me with a major surprise and i knew that it's work over family. another few hours of mad discussion and bargaining, they decided to cancel it because boss wanted to focus on service over product. thanks for this wonderful decision. but it was a roller coaster morning.
1.24am now, i need to slp. i am very tired but i think i can still manage. will pop by and visit dad before i head to work tml morning, also to pass him the medicine and other necessities. hope this stay would be a short one.
there is a department picnic on sat afternoon. i ought to be there to show my face, since my status is still unstable, trying my very best to stay employed. 2.30-6pm, at east coast park. if only anyone knows my suitation. i'm not going to play.
gd night world. give me strength when i awake.
to smile and converse happily to others like nothing has happened, i need the strength and will.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Pa / Driving /CFA / Work
I presume I need much more funds for the battle starting tomorrow.. Do you think staff of TTSH gets discount for family members? Maybe I should try get a job there.
Alright, I shall go back to reading Vol 1.
Oh! Btw, Keane got 133 (Distinction) for his Grade 1. His mum was so happy and she texted me. So I took the chance and told her
ME: "Let's increase the fee to $1XX. See you on Sat!"
HER: "Sure ok! See you!"
I am still broke as I paid cash for CFA from the secret saving. Don't forget the driving lessons that I have been going almost twice a week. Going to the circuits gonna cost so much more. I should pass the first time. Fingers crossed!
Monday, March 15, 2010
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Monday, March 1, 2010
work. dad. health
one whole batch was asked to leave, effective this month.
i was called in too, given 3 mths before next assessment.
$2 lunch suddenly taste quite awful.
hope mummy eats up during lunch and dinner, for all i save for her to use
he is giving dad money when he leaves for taiwan
i felt useless that i can't do anything or not earning enough
i want a bowl of fish soup












