AHH!!

WHY?


I knew u were still unwell, so despite my leg hurts and i was tired, I made an effort to travel to tpy to get u nice and healthy SCALLOP porridge from crystal jade and bird nest then cab all the way to ur house in the northen part of singapore to pass u the food then i left. we met for less than 5 minutes.


I was so excited last night as i thought we would go "dating" today and tot of dressing up for u. I canceled the meeting because u SAID u wanted to take me to the doc, but we din go in the end because u did not sound desperate in going to the doc with me. I had no dinner tonight, bcos i tot we would be having dinner together after seeing the doc, so i told mum not to cook BUT it was just a DREAM.


it always seen like a torture to make u travel all the way to my house to eat with me. i never had that feeling when i travel all the way to YOUR HOUSE to send u food for less than 5 minutes then i take THE long journey home. and the last time, you were unhappy about it. How would you think i felt?


where is the old u who will wake up super early and take me to breakfast on sat morning before i teach at kawai. yes u were then working normal 5 day weeks work life. but i feel that u are so slack now. as if we have switched position. am i not tired as well? other than dating, i have to go to sch, TEACH, sell things online, TUITION, project. yes u have to work and (study), and do household chores.



is it a guy thing?

or is it a girl thing?



everyone has different expectation, i wan someone to be there to care for me via actions and NOT just by saying.




I AM NOT HAPPY!!!


I wanna kill people.