dad went in again, this time seems serious. i could nt concentrate @ work today, i was so worried that i sent paul down, i wanted to take UL but he went down to assist.
he could have been inflected. kudos to him for enduring the pain and keeping mum even when i sent paul over to my place to take charge. he endured for the entire afternoon, only decided to be admitted late evening. he's now kept in an isolated room. and mama is currently also having some appointment at ttsh, now i have to ensure she quickly recover so she could take care of pa

i'm so tired. i failed the test. i'm very guilty for not passing it, i can't take dad for all the appointment and i had to trouble uncle who would purposely return from jb to drive him around. i'm sorry dad. money funds required for the practice.

i just the call from citi to confirm and offer me. please. call me. just offer me, i will accept it. i am that desperate. i can't take it anymore at my current place.

a mixture of good and bad news isn't it.

mum's last part time job is ending coming week, no more extra income, which means the entire household falls on me. i need a higher paying job. i really need one. and yes i will go look for a government job, let's give up the idea of trying to venture into the private sector to challenge myself. it's not the right timing to do so. i need stability now.

i'm taking UL tml, if they decided to fire me because i take one UL, go ahead. this department is not worth my contribution.

today is pay day, i never felt so happy and desperate that my pay is in the account. it doesn't used to bother me when is my pay day because i used to have enough saving to keep me happy, spending a little of good food and a little on some pretty new clothes. but now, i am so desperate that i calcualate the expenses to the last dollar so that there's enough for everything at this moment.

i really need medifund to be approved. i finally felt what it meant by working just for money. no longer working for the passion.

i used to be fearful of taking leave, mc, urgent leave, being late at work. recently i gave up, not that i started to go to work late or taking mc frequently, i felt it doesn't matter if i have prefect attendance or i m the most productive.



good bye world, i need to slp before i collapse