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i tendered. yet still so busy running errands for the family in order to make the parents happy. rush like mad, beg others to help, make myself sound like a bitch. and my bank account is dried after paying all the expenses. excluding ttsh medical bill. i don't wish to think about the bill at this moment.


taking one day at a time. why can't they take things slowly, rushing me like mad. i can't really breathe. kan cheong stupid.

it was his birthday and i decided to get him a present, a micro-hifi. something he wants.

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10May2010

i tot it would be good to document down everything as a diary.. it has spread.. spread to the liver, more areas in the bone and cells in lung have enlarged.. the chemo is not reacting to his condition. he vommitted today, for the first time since it was discovered. we sent him in, again after a lot persuasion.

i did not share the news with mum regarding the spread. we kept it to ourselves. doc says less than a year left. he mentioned since the beginning it was to control and not for cure.

i have only one regret. we have not taken the graduation photo. i felt so bad for being so stubborn. for delaying and dragging. but i finally did sth, mon i brought both of them to make spects at bishan. dad looked happy with the new spects and mum spent so much time choosing something that she liked. they will be ready in a week. at least i did sth.

we mus take a graduation photo. i promise. i will do it.

ps: it will be fine