i did mention i slept at 5am the night before n woke up at 10am, the very next night i slept at 2am n 2day i woke at 4.30am.. we headed for our qing ming festival..

took some interesting photos but the mood was dampen the very moment i fell down in LimChuKang. yes this is the nth time i fell down this year. scratched and injured my back, scratched my hand. reached home by 8+, rush to market for food, rush home to shower then rush to kawai to teach phew i made it in 10mins from home to paragon. gd thing that i live so near town.

2 sessions of dc followed. took a power 15mins nap before the start of the 2nd show, i went to the washroom to wash up BUT i dropped my pass into the toilet bowl, it auto-flushed n it's gone forever. i broke down at that very moment. i would need to pay for $100 for a lost pass based on my memory..BUT FL was so nice to tell me i just have to pay $5-10 for replacement fee..


i agreed that i m very stress recently, i have been eating a lot recently n during dinner break today i bought a chocolate bar n munched after i had laksa for dinner. n suddenly paul texted me that he's on leave tml. i went even more crazy. he wishes to meet me BUT It was not according to our plan or there was NO Plan right from the start. i have dozens of stuff to do tml.

dear, there's a reason why i spent so much time to do my schedule n sent u a copy. yet u din bother looking at it. if u do, u would noe that i haf to teach at lcms followed by ethan tml. n now i have to squeeze in a visit to the chinese physician bcos i fell down today.

i burst into tears during work but no one noticed since i was at BB.. yet i smiled sweetly at the 119 patrons there n said at least 90 times, "good evening, turn right pls.. pls be careful... enjoy yourself.."

thousands of things are in my mind.. i'm totally stress

from school work to upcoming exam, i'm even more stress about my final year.. fear that i would not be able to complete all my econs core/elective modules within the two semesters.. n i have yet to find a fyp group.

next, ethan's tuition is stressing me. i haf to make sure that he learns his spelling n get a decent grade every thur even when i'm unavailable to teach him on any week.. c hinted me that ethan will b accessed by moe again sometime in p3.. if ethan is unable to read or do his work by then, i'm in big trouble. but grace told me that firstly ethan is lazy to study n we have done our best. also i have to make sure that ethan has tuition every week n the tutors turn up n the schedules do not crush.

lcms: it's just the high expectation i give myself..

family: as usual..

boyfriend: i'm trying my best to squeeze out time for paul already n when i say i really have no time for meet-up, i mean it. my schedule is packed n planned till end april..

dc: mayb i'm just too nice, when they ask for help desperately, i gladly provide my service.


afterall, mayb what carene said was right. i should stop being so nice n just say OK to everyone.. while in the end i'm killing myself...

meanwhile i feel bad cos paul took leave tml partly bcos of me.. this will mean i have to wake up very early to go visit the doc by 9am n rush back to teach at lcms till 4pm then rush to teach ethan till 6.30pm then we can do a simple dinner tml evening..

for now, shower, sleep