slept @ 2am last night to rush Development Economic Paper. woke up by 6am today as the babies were making lots of noise n ewan hugged my leg in the middle of the night. prepared ewan for sch, played with evan for a while n decided to make a healthy lunch for everyone today. started cooking at 9.30am..made soup, steamed fish, stir fried vegetables n fried tomato egg..done n cleaned up the kitchen by 11am n went to shower. ethan n evan returned home when i'm out of the shower, carol bought food back n the boys were eating the food that she bought. she thought i made only soup, so she went to buy 2 vegetables, fried prawns, fish ball soups and chicken.

12.10pm, sent ethan to sch with carol, collected my camera at canon harbor front, went back to my house to leave the camera for my cousin n returned back to meng garden. poor paul is waiting downstairs for me, went home by 2+ n got paul to go up together. carol sent grace to sch n went to meet karmeni.

dear spent the day playing with evan n ewan, n they were all v happy. i was totally drained n KO. marygen was busy with the household chores. carol came back only around 7pm. i asked for permission to haf dinner with paul after her nv ending conversation with me. had a simple meal with dear but i was v happy n we went grocery shopping at ntuc to stock up food for me. ever though he did not eat any of the food i prepared for him, i was v happy that he came to visit me n brought me lots of delicious kweh! our favorite!

today should be the first and last time i will prepare a meal for her family.

ethan failed his english exam badly.. sometimes i jus wondered shld i jus give him up n find other students which gives me less trouble n i do not haf to endure the nonsense that he gives me. on top of that, the effort i haf to put in for c n her family.

perhaps i'm jus too tired today. n i did not get my beary hug. he gave them all to the 2 boys.

dear, i m tired. quite tired helping out at c's place. it is the tution teacher (that is ME) that wakes up at 7am to prepare her son for sch n send her son down to take the sch bus. attend class with her youngest son, play with them in the afternoon before they slp n after they wake. entertain the sons when the parents haf to go out. n when the babies r aslp, haf to entertain the mother with her never ending conversation even when i m trying to do my work. last night she kept chatting with me while i m sitting in front of the lappy trying to rush out my paper. In the end, i was 1 hour late for the submission. i knew i'm in big trouble. n every night i try n do my work only when everyone is in bed till late. most nights i cant slp well, firstly bcos the mattress is not good, the babies keep waking up n cry in the middle of the night, n i wake up by 6+ every morning.

weelig came home at 1am+ n said, "every night late night".
i replied, "yah, no choice, cant study in the afternoon."
weelig, " i told carol, she doesnt believe me."
me, "it's ok. gd night"

how long more can i survive? first paper next fri. gd luck.