my past 2 years..

this aug marks the beginning of my third yr in ntu-hss (econs).. close friends r aware tt i spend 90% of my time doing other stuff n only 10% in tt ulu corner of western part of sg.. some days ago I was telling dad tt i will most likely further my studies in music education (teaching) for young children n nt stay in the banking industry.. he was shocked saying tt if tts the case, these 4 yrs of ntu will b a waste, as gd as throwing $ away.. then asked y did i chose to do it @ the beginning.. i replied tt it was my kor's decision for me to take up the offer.. then i told him tt don worry, i will make sure i pass n work a few yrs in the banking sector b4 i fly to persue my dreams..

these past 2 yrs i haf been playing a waiting game with myself.. while keeping myself v busy with the following:

• jeremy (2hrs/wk)
• jh/dh (6hrs/wk)
• kawai (2hr/wk)
• dc (av 16hrs/wk)
• sa(j) (av 6hr/wk)
• swspe (3hrs/wk)
• ethan (4-10hrs/wk)
• ehs (8hrs/wk - but no longer gg there)
• preparation of teaching materials (7-10hrs/wk)
• NTU (3-5hrs/wk)
• shopping, tv, tea, net, etc.. (rest of the time)

the next 2 yrs would b as bz as b4.. spending more time with ethan (12-16hrs/wk) n @ kawai, both with heavier responsibility, i haf decided to gif up dc.. perhaps i will still appear once in a blue moon... i think the secondary reason is oso tt i feel weird appearing @ dc after teaching @ kawai n sa(j).. it's a status thingy i cannt overcome.. the politcial issues @ dc added salt n pepper into the whole issue too.. i will depart gracefully.. for i enjoy my stay there n met many nice friends n last but nt least my bosses.. (wg n fl).. my dad always scold me for being too nice to pple (eg. is dh/jh) treating them soo nice for wat? bring them to places to eat, shop, taking care of them, help them whenever there's problem etc.. but i enjoy doing all these.. it doesnt matter if they do nt rmb me, it's ok.. i don need tt.. i feel happy n gd after doing everything for them.. dad scolds me for spending soo much time n money on pple who do nt appreciate.. but i feel it's ok, being happy is most impt.. money can always earn back in future..

sumit tells me tt staying at dc will help to balance my life n make me humble.. so tt i will nt fly too high n too fast at this age.. but i doubt i haf the time n most importantly energy to play those political games @ dc.. don waste my precious time.. i rather spend my time resting at home n thinking of new lesson plans n preparing for teaching materials then being treated badly @ dc by some pple..

i decided to remove myself off the waiting game.. i am nt giving up but i think it's over.. i am happy doing what i am doing at the moment n i know that the next 2 yrs will b a new level in my life, having to prepare n create new programmes for kawai n focusing on my dear ethan.. he is soo lovely.. n smart! i cannt give up on him.. since his parents r nt v gd at teaching him.. i mus help ethan n turn him into a better little boy.. i mus help him settle his life at acs (the rich-man sch with the super kiasu parents) for the beginning 3 yrs.. n oso nt forgetting the oso v cute jeremy!!

half a yr later i will start to teach Ewan music when he turns 4.. ethan will start his music lessons when he settle his sch work.. ewan was soo cute yesterday.. we were having lessons in the study room, the two babies (ewan n evan) bang on the door abt 20mins later.. i opened the door, holding a small metal ruler.. STARED @ them n warned them NOT to disturb their korkor ethan when we r hafing lessons.. n warned baby evan nt to draw on our white board n ewan is NOT supposed to enter the study room at anytime. ewan nodded his head n reminded him to make sure baby evan doesnt enter the room. He replied, "OK" n I asked them to go play in the living room.. so guess what? they did not disturb us for the rest of the time..

after lesson @ 7.30pm, i opened the door n ewan stood outside the room (dare nt enter).. said, "korkor finished already, is it my turn?" sooo cute!! i said, "hmm.. i am v hungry now, let me go n haf my dinner first, n i will teach u tml?" he replied, "ok!" caroline was standing behind ewan n she was shocked haha.. i cant wait to teach ewan!!! but currently i do nt have the time.. concentrate on ethan is the most impt task nw..

ok shall go prepare for today's lesson n teaching materials.. gonna pick up ethan from acs @ 4.30pm, go back to meng's garden (btw, fyi, meng's garden belongs to their family.. the entire building! they built it in 1930s when their grandfather came to sg.. damn rich.. they were our mm's neigbour since 1930s.. nt bad sia) n shower him, drink his milk, rest then start lesson..