if u can see me now..

Seeing is believing

2011-09-10T00:42:00.001+08:00

I want to believe

Love

2011-09-03T18:15:00.002+08:00

Love could be set in motion quickly, but true love needed time to grow into something strong and enduring. Love was,above all,about commitment and dedication and a belief that spending years with a certain person would create something greater than the sum of what the two could accomplish separately. Only time, however, could show whether you'd been accurate in your judgment. - True Believer, Nicholas Sparks

2011-08-19T21:40:00.001+08:00

Hello, I'm engaged!

2011-05-31T23:58:00.001+08:00

Happiness is not driving a flashy car...or a high status or earning big bucks.. It comes from the heart.

I am happy now. I found my happiness. It is always beside me and I almost lost it.

Have you found yours?

2011-05-27T14:28:00.003+08:00

After going through a big circle, we are back to where we should belong.

It's time to let go, forget and learn from this experience.

2011-05-14T13:01:00.002+08:00

What's next?

G: ...I am just here unchanged. I wanna give you time. That's all. I have not change any perspective. Believe this. Because u gave me opportunity. And I want to give u n p also.... I don't want u ot me to be baggages by biological or time factor but the real reason to have a clear mind on your end before taking a leap of faith..you should not live ur day being doubtful.. But sure and be assure of your every move and decision.. Only time will help you.. And guide you..

Perhaps he is right, only time will help and guide me

Baby steps, slowly but surely I will find the answer within...

Pa, tell me I am right

2011-05-09T11:15:00.001+08:00

What should I do?

Is this gamble too huge a risk to take?

Will I be happy in the end?

What is love?

Loved

2011-05-08T20:00:00.002+08:00

After almost four years being together, we broke off. It was a huge decision made. We did it gracefully, tears were shed but we managed it well. People started asking what happened and I was repeating the story all over again. Mummy still wanted us to be together, but I know it may not happen.

There were beautiful memories, also those that can be used as learning examples. We loved and the love ended on my part. I still call and ask him for advices, but it feels totally different as before.

No longer walk on the street with someone holding my hand while crossing the road or down the stairs to ensure of my safety. I am all alone now. The future is filled with uncertainty, this is a risk I chose. I made a mistake I admit, for giving my heart to someone else.

There was marriage plans and in the midst of applying for flats, I was scared when they happened. No longer looking forward but took a step back. I questioned if I am ready and if Paul was the one? He took great care of me these few years, always trying to make me smile and happy. In all relationship, there will be problems for sure. The problems may be small in this case, but i care.

I need to share these reasons, perhaps a few years later when I look back, I will know if I made the right choice.

I care about being introduced to his social life, his friends and family. I never met his friends, only 2 I knew. 1 was Vincent who got us together, the other is his bestie. I remembered one night he was hosptailsed, I did not hear from him. I was worried, nor I know his family. Last year we met his friends for the first time, after a 3 years wait. I was very excited. It was for a wedding. Yet during the session, I was left alone. He mingled with his friends. I felt strange.

I am typing on the iPad now, a gift from him this valentine's. He showered me with expensive electronic goods, from the best camera then, 1st generation itouch, ds, handphone. I thanked his for his generousity, they don't come cheap. He had his reasons for buying me these presents, they are practical in my daily use. I am touched, but I am unhappy. The best present I received will be Teddy and fatty, and the pair of chanel earrings. They are inexpensive as compared to the high tech goods.

Paul is a good guy, one that is rare in today's society, he loves me and my family. But he is too quiet. Often when we are out, I am frastruated, why can't he ask the question, why is he so shy? He loves me quietly, supporting my job in the background. I appreciated it, but I longed for a voice to encourage me and give me the strength to move forward.

For this choice that I made, may not have an outcome. It is a risk that I am taking, giving up everything for something new. The clock starts ticking again, from 0... I don't have many 4 years to go through.. I secretly hope it will work out. Feelings are vague, they can't be explained. I feel good when with G, he is decisive and it has been something I always wanted. People who heard of G have been feeding me with negative comments, I listened to them but stick to my decision. I have been asking a few times if he is good.

All I want now is to ride through the process slowly, getting to know someone from scratch.. There will be other challenges to come, I hope I am ready for them. As they unveil, I am in love all over again....

2011-04-15T06:41:00.002+08:00

Work has been progressing smoothly..the opportunities are coming..
Going for my first "work trip" today,which makes me pretty excited, though it's only across the causeway.

LovE

2011-03-23T21:02:00.002+08:00

There seems to be a problem...

I must have made a mistake from the start...

Wake up

2010-09-26T00:01:00.002+08:00

I love to own a Work for 2011 :)

the other day i walked into the jewellery store with Mum and got a pair of blings.. noti me.. and ordered a bag from coach.. no more shopping till 2011.

got a little pay increment some days ago.. shocked when xiao hei gave me the letter and i stared at it for 1minute? He said, "You are now an Assistant Manager." I replied, "Ok..." OH.. and I joined for only 4 mths? haa.. lucky me.

Pa, If you could see me now, you would be proud...

2010-07-29T21:17:00.002+08:00

everyone is asking me if i'm ok.. suddenly i wonder if i'm really ok now.. i am so tired. mum is asking me to handle everything, rushing me to do this and do that. i am breaking down.

i'm taking time to be with my mum every single minute i have to spare. taking her out, taking her to work, taking her to eat, sleeping with her, while i sleep on the floor.

i am tired.

no one understands / papa i missed you

2010-07-14T23:48:00.002+08:00

No one understands how I am feeling now.

NO ONE.

2010-06-28T08:30:00.002+08:00

Don't take away him from me please. There's so much more yet to be done.

I am trying my very best to make your little wishes come try one by one. Hang in there pa.

We finally went to the studio and took a family photo of 3 and of 4 with paul. Pa was in pain but he was very happy and did not grumble when the photographer requested for various position. I'm proud of you pa. The photos would be ready in 10 days. I hope they turn out great.

Happy Father's Day

I hope you liked this arrangment. I could see your smiles throughout the night.

I'm happy that you are happy, that's all I asked for now.

2010-06-03T21:48:00.002+08:00

i'm tired

i deferred cfa till june 2011 as i really have no time and energy to study for it. the board kindly accepted my request as I shared the main reason with them.

if they are less stubborn and worrying, i would not have to rush around adminstering everything. if they are cooperative, i would not have to worry so much.

i am worried and stressful enough, stop giving trouble and adding more unnecessary matters for me to be taken care off.

no doubt the bosses are supportive in my unreasonable arrangement of taking so many leave in a month and soon I would have negative leaves before I complete my probation of 6 months. time and resources are wasted.

with uncaring member, I have to include more expenses and find help to manage each treatment session. there's no one to help me, no one who is able to help out. no one. no one!

no point having a figure head being there but no knowing what to do, what to ask, how to handle the suitation, how to take care of him when he requires some attention.

With such complications and a daily reporting to do to taiwan, on top of my new job, I am exhausted.

LEAVE ME ALONE of UNNECESSARY TROUBLE!

2010-05-17T20:26:00.002+08:00

will a miracle happen?

i'm giving up. it's so difficult. pleasing him, seeing him in pain. seeing him stoning at home even after i got him lots of entertainment. feeling tired hourly. eating so little. so moody.

how long will this battle be?

if it is not ending, i will let him go without suffering. less pain, more happiness.

mum is getting old, seeing her doing chores the entire day - from cooking, to washing, to serving meals etc, i felt bad. if only i have enough money to employ a part time domestic worker. she would be happier. noticed her temper has improved. she becomes calmer and friendlier.

i'm tired. my wallet is tired too. i'm immune to just paying non-stop to keep them happy.

2010-05-12T22:50:00.002+08:00

pain

i am very sad. seeing the nurses and doctors withdraw so much blood from dad for test. poking needles. i felt the pain. he must be in pain.

i dare not cry in front of them. i must look strong and be able to administer all these. also got to report to kor who is so worried in taiwan. updating him regularly via email.

it will be fine...

2010-04-24T12:56:00.005+08:00

buzz

i tendered. yet still so busy running errands for the family in order to make the parents happy. rush like mad, beg others to help, make myself sound like a bitch. and my bank account is dried after paying all the expenses. excluding ttsh medical bill. i don't wish to think about the bill at this moment.

taking one day at a time. why can't they take things slowly, rushing me like mad. i can't really breathe. kan cheong stupid.

it was his birthday and i decided to get him a present, a micro-hifi. something he wants.

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10May2010

i tot it would be good to document down everything as a diary.. it has spread.. spread to the liver, more areas in the bone and cells in lung have enlarged.. the chemo is not reacting to his condition. he vommitted today, for the first time since it was discovered. we sent him in, again after a lot persuasion.

i did not share the news with mum regarding the spread. we kept it to ourselves. doc says less than a year left. he mentioned since the beginning it was to control and not for cure.

i have only one regret. we have not taken the graduation photo. i felt so bad for being so stubborn. for delaying and dragging. but i finally did sth, mon i brought both of them to make spects at bishan. dad looked happy with the new spects and mum spent so much time choosing something that she liked. they will be ready in a week. at least i did sth.

we mus take a graduation photo. i promise. i will do it.

ps: it will be fine

2010-04-19T20:42:00.002+08:00

101...

things to manage.
this and that.
here and there.
his and hers.

2010-04-17T00:50:00.002+08:00

dad went in again, this time seems serious. i could nt concentrate @ work today, i was so worried that i sent paul down, i wanted to take UL but he went down to assist.
he could have been inflected. kudos to him for enduring the pain and keeping mum even when i sent paul over to my place to take charge. he endured for the entire afternoon, only decided to be admitted late evening. he's now kept in an isolated room. and mama is currently also having some appointment at ttsh, now i have to ensure she quickly recover so she could take care of pa

i'm so tired. i failed the test. i'm very guilty for not passing it, i can't take dad for all the appointment and i had to trouble uncle who would purposely return from jb to drive him around. i'm sorry dad. money funds required for the practice.

i just the call from citi to confirm and offer me. please. call me. just offer me, i will accept it. i am that desperate. i can't take it anymore at my current place.

a mixture of good and bad news isn't it.

mum's last part time job is ending coming week, no more extra income, which means the entire household falls on me. i need a higher paying job. i really need one. and yes i will go look for a government job, let's give up the idea of trying to venture into the private sector to challenge myself. it's not the right timing to do so. i need stability now.

i'm taking UL tml, if they decided to fire me because i take one UL, go ahead. this department is not worth my contribution.

today is pay day, i never felt so happy and desperate that my pay is in the account. it doesn't used to bother me when is my pay day because i used to have enough saving to keep me happy, spending a little of good food and a little on some pretty new clothes. but now, i am so desperate that i calcualate the expenses to the last dollar so that there's enough for everything at this moment.

i really need medifund to be approved. i finally felt what it meant by working just for money. no longer working for the passion.

i used to be fearful of taking leave, mc, urgent leave, being late at work. recently i gave up, not that i started to go to work late or taking mc frequently, i felt it doesn't matter if i have prefect attendance or i m the most productive.

good bye world, i need to slp before i collapse

2010-04-12T21:48:00.006+08:00

2079

1000 - tcm
200 - prudential
300 - mum
50 - food
100 - singtel
100 - singapore power
61 - milk
100 - dad
100 - car

_______________

68 - emergency funds

I AM BEGINNING TO PANIC

i seriously NEED a higher-paid job We have not factor in the Hospital bill. What happen if the funds are not approved? what am i supposed to do?

ONE needle costs $2000+ he needs FOUR sessions + operation + consultation.

2010-04-11T13:39:00.002+08:00

black papa

2nd tcm session was good! blackish face/skin/nails is normal for patient undergoing chemo session. swollen leg is one of the side effect hence we shall not worry. dr yeo included skin whitening herbs so that pa will not appear too dark. i paid $215 now. i realised the "pao sheng" + "green tea" pills cost $96, it's rather expensive but i think they are extremely good for health. as long as it's helpful, money can be earned.

on a side note, i think C is gonna employ me BUT S is requesting for my CV. i shall wait for S replies. anyway meeting C's hr on coming thur, will try to drag. though the work location for S is super far, but the benefits would be better, especially the branding.

i really driving. was doing circuits training yesterday and uncle philip was saying good after every section. hohoho! there was a point where he went down to look at mango tree while i was doing the directional change by myself. it's not the first time he leave me alone to practice. he used to go buy food while i practice parking in the multi-story carpark. exam is on thur, should be able to pass. then we can go zoom zoom. i will put buttons in the back seat. also, i may drive dad around for all the consultation. i am soo happy and excited abt getting my license. wish me luck.

best friend is coming to visit dad today. sometimes no action is required, a simple message means everything. thank you. :)

i am cleaning up my room and bags today. If you dare, you may try to use dettol to soak ur LongChamp bag for a good 1hour, pour away the water and soak with bleaching power for another 1 hour then rinse it. Hang it to dry under the sun. afterwhich use an eraser to rub off the dirt if required. it will look brand new again!

2010-04-08T20:00:00.003+08:00

it's coming...

pa is beginning to feel tired and his face is turning dark. asked CL, he said due to lost of blood..

we are going to TCM tml. hope all is well. aza

i decided to try citi, hope it will be successful. had 2nd and 3rd round last night. the 3rd round was tough, the HEAD really drained me upside down. what is ur fav subject, why u like numbers, why don't u go become a musician, when was the last time u played music. and the worst question was, "what is ur stand on european nations having one common currency?"

so i told him it's to boost the economy - especially the smaller nations, tourism - as tourist usually would tour Europe, so having one currency would be more conv for tourist, business - trading in one currency would be move conv also.

moreover i could not understand his question cos of his accent! so i had to said, "I'm sorry?" hahaha oops!

towards the end of the interview, i stayed firm and

i cried after the interview downstairs. silly me

today @

1653HOURS: i decided and called him on his mobile phone

2021HOURS: he called me!! omg! he said he would arrange for a manager to call me tml regarding the meetup with HR. i should have called him earlier so that the last interview could be arranged tml immediately. stupid me.

[edited]

pa's leg is swollen, face turned black, getting tired, a little breathless when he talks more than a sentence.

worried, got to call the hosiptal tml.

going to 2nd session of TCM tomorrow..

2010-04-07T23:00:00.000+08:00

crossroad

stay or go?

2010-04-02T19:42:00.007+08:00

day T-W-O

pa is reacting well to his 1st session, no fever, no vomitting. he is walking faster and feeling less pain. he is also eating more. :)

i have worked out the expenses list for our current spending, allow me to share it with you. In case I reject your date or meetup, I hope you understand that I am going through some tightening of my budget policy now. Notthat I am anti-social, but it's family over friends now. So, sorry that I can no longer dine at expensive restaurant or catch a weekly movie with friends. I'm happy sitting with paul or lying on his tummy racing on our ds lite, or go for a car ride. or the morning / evening stroll with pa along our "long kang".

monthly income (take home):
$1839 + $240 = $2079

I'm sorry if I earn less than an average local graduate but I am happy that the job fits my current suitation, given the flexibility of the schedule. We can't ask for everything in life isn't it. So pardon me if I earn less than you.

monthly expenditure:
TCM bill - $1000 approx
Mum - $300
Milk for pa - $61
Insurance - $200
Singtel - S$100
M1 - $30
SP - $100 approx
HDB - $30
Food @ work - $50 (daily mixed rice lunch cost only $2 haha)
Car - $20 for cleaning/washing + $xxx for petrol (shall see after I pass)

outstanding
so i am left with $188! what a nice figure. If the monthly petrol cost $100, I would have extra $88 for emergency use. Huat ar!

hope we could get 100% funding from MediFund for the treatment otherwise I really have to sell Ms Blackie or go borrow from the bank -aka -loanshark. ocbc easicredit, cash on installment is quite a good product cost it's interest free if i pay ontime and i am only charged a one-time processing fee.

convert me soon and i will get at around $400-500 extra.

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lastly, this is for ms GRACE CHEE ENHUI:

HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

so sorry that i did not celebrate with you. will take you out for a nice dinner when i am richer.

2010-03-31T22:19:00.002+08:00

the list

* 1st session successful
* medifund submitted
* TCM medicine -10 days pack - collected
* Cooking Book borrowed + bought
* 2nd TCM appointment booked! (if only u noe how hard it was to get thru them)
* flew for the citibank interview as pa's session was delayed, i did well again BUT turned down 2nd interview on the spot cos i needed to rush back to TTSH immediately cos pa was almost done with his session. they were soo nice and understanding, will reschedule for me when i am available ~ aww!
* came home saw another interview invitation. *tsk tsk (is the economy really picking up or my resume is so good that so many people are calling me these few days) I turned down one this morning cos it's insurance oops!
* many good news recently - doc says aiming for cure rather than to prolong. will proceed for surgery after 4 sessions.
* i need to save up for TCM cos thats the main cash component now, average $200 per visit, hence i need $800-1000 per month. *finger crossed, shld be ok i guess. shall go back to eat $2 rice everyday then.

alright i am very tired, running here and there these few days. got to work tomorrow. to shower then to bed. i shall read CFA vol2 tml cos part 2 of vol1 is on stats which i hate hahaha oops!

though there were tears tonight, i hope we will stay united and create a peace loving environment.

important dates to rmb

9/04 - 2nd TCM
14/04 - TTSH consultation
15/04 - TP! pray that i passed 1st time pls then i can drive dad around, don't have to trouble uncle.

gd night world, it's 8-5.30pm tml.

2010-03-28T21:14:00.003+08:00

money

got this today to prepare for days where pa cannot swallow the food or has no appetite. i am kiasu but i just want to prepare for a condusive environment. also for mum to prepare food fast. she waste so much time cooking. she is so stubborn and afraid of anything. when something happens, she freaks out and we tell her to do this and that she would say don't scare her, never do before.

still deciding on a water filter. uv sterilisation? alkaline/acidic water? so many different products. since water is to be consumed, i dare not buy any product on the shelf. i still need more information.

ordered Osim iLife in white, will collect it tml and paul gonna send it over.

mum is so stubborn, told her NO SALT and NO SUGAR. she doesn't believe. SALT and SUGAR bad for the cells, because they feed and grow bigger. of course we want to KILL the bad cells. mummy just won't listen. I am so tired of telling her NO.

i am still finding jobs, find more money, trying to find time to read thru a few pages of CFA.

I am doing a Coach Spree in April. Only small accessories taking in. Will spree at my usual site. Update once i settle very important stuff next week.

1st Chemo session/Medifund/Interview/Driving lessons

i am actually quite scared. read that it could be stage 4 as it has spread to the bone..

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CHANEL DRILL FLAP for sale

Bought from London Selfridges in 2009. Retailing for S$4000+ in Singapore.

Authencity Card/Box/Ribbon/Flower/Paper Bag provided

Starting $2500, highest bidder win. Meetup to collect, cash and carry.

End 11/04/2010 @ 1159Hours

email to sabrinatay_1985@yahoo.com

In excellent condition, no scratches or smell. Only carried it thrice.

Perforated, lambskin with silk lining.
It's my baby but you know why I need to sell it, I need money for my dad's treatment.
The buckle was replaced in Chanel Singapore last year, they imported a new one from Paris and replaced it for me as one crystal fell off.

Pls don't ask me if it is authentic. This is my dream bag. I handcarried it from London.

PS: If anyone is interested in a Burberry Beach Tote, I can put up for sale. Email me if interested.

2010-03-27T23:00:00.002+08:00

air/water

OSIM iLife
Hope this helps.

S$628, but managed to get some good deal.

Still looking for a water filter

Went for my first circuit today, but wasted 30 minutes due to miscommunication. I was waiting at our usual pickup point but he was waiting at ubi. cab down and wasted time and money. So our usual 1.5hours session became 1hour which I paid $39 + $30 (circuit) + $8.80 cab fare.

Nvm, i am too tired to argue with him.

Went to check out the different products at carrefour, robinsons as well as taka.

Decided on Osim iLife and some baby products which I believe would be good for pa since babies are very sensitive to everything isn't it?

Shall get the food-cum-blender and some baby detergent tomorrow at robinson after work. Making use of the 20% + $20 off $120 + 5% rebate. at least i can save $66. thats the cheapest I found along the whole of orchard today. if pa can't chew the food when treatment starts, at least we can prepare some mushy food for him.

I was so tired that I almost felt asleep during driving lesson today.

Hope pa can be discharge tomorrow.

Things to do

1. Decide on water filter and buy it before 31/03

2. Buy baby detergent and food-cum-blender steamer

3. Apply for Medifund on wed

4. Prepare for interview on wed after ttsh - 4pm

5. fix appointment for TCM in 2 weeks.

6. meetup with ken to arrange for insurance for mummy

7.study at least CFA - 1 chapter in a week

8. score a new job

9. FIND MORE MONEY

I can do it..

2010-03-26T01:09:00.002+08:00

5A, 30

he has fever tonight, i forced him to go. finally we went after me talking for an hour
mum suddenly felt giddy, i left her at home and went with uncle.
bro has cough, asked him to stay home and rest.

doc says lung infected (again), got to run some tests

admission was very fast, in at 10.30am, everything done in 2hours, including getting a bed
perhaps it was due to his urgent case.
nurses and doctor were rather rude. maybe they were tired, i don't blame them
after attending to you, they totally ignored you when you try to ask them some questions.
no eye contact even when u stood in front of them, waving and talking to them. eyes were far away attending to the very next patient.

dad looked worried, tried my best to comfort him.
mum doesn't sound ok when i got home, tried my best to explain to her. hope she would be less stubborn and listen to me. No means no.

gonna apply for MediFund. will talk to the relevant department on sat/sun, hope the funds would help to pay for the medical fee, otherwise i would have to start borrowing from the loan shark.

cfa/driving/dad/mum/work/money

can i do it? pls pray for me

almost died today when they wanted to schedule a last minute 2 week training starting tml. i need to be free next wed so i could be there for his first session. after a mad rush to find someone willing to change my off day with me, the scheduler shocked me with a major surprise and i knew that it's work over family. another few hours of mad discussion and bargaining, they decided to cancel it because boss wanted to focus on service over product. thanks for this wonderful decision. but it was a roller coaster morning.

1.24am now, i need to slp. i am very tired but i think i can still manage. will pop by and visit dad before i head to work tml morning, also to pass him the medicine and other necessities. hope this stay would be a short one.

there is a department picnic on sat afternoon. i ought to be there to show my face, since my status is still unstable, trying my very best to stay employed. 2.30-6pm, at east coast park. if only anyone knows my suitation. i'm not going to play.

gd night world. give me strength when i awake.
to smile and converse happily to others like nothing has happened, i need the strength and will.

2010-03-24T22:13:00.003+08:00

dollars and cents

$4000 + each chemo session
need to apply for whatever funds out there.

email /sms me if u know any.

meanwhile i need to start spreeing again

Things to Buy

[1] water filter

[?] air filter - if necessary

2010-03-23T20:31:00.005+08:00

Random

Pa / Driving /CFA / Work

I presume I need much more funds for the battle starting tomorrow.. Do you think staff of TTSH gets discount for family members? Maybe I should try get a job there.

Alright, I shall go back to reading Vol 1.

Oh! Btw, Keane got 133 (Distinction) for his Grade 1. His mum was so happy and she texted me. So I took the chance and told her

ME: "Let's increase the fee to $1XX. See you on Sat!"
HER: "Sure ok! See you!"

I am still broke as I paid cash for CFA from the secret saving. Don't forget the driving lessons that I have been going almost twice a week. Going to the circuits gonna cost so much more. I should pass the first time. Fingers crossed!

2010-03-15T19:46:00.002+08:00

say hello to ms piggy!

our secret hangout (:

a nice swim under the busking sun on a weekdaayyy

I HAVE AN INTERVIEW THIS WED!!!

good luck to me! (:

I have been snacking, reading, random surfing, playing ds at work. I can't wait to QUIT. Boo.. boring job. High Investment, NO returns.

2010-03-13T18:31:00.002+08:00

am not in the best of mood recently, stay clear.

i believe i am suffering from depression

lack of money, lack of happiness, lack of security (@ work)

i just spent $200 on buying things for others when they demand for it.. i am just so unhappy about it.. when i am so poor now..

ahhh!

2010-03-09T22:12:00.003+08:00

The Next Paycheck goes to Ms Kristen

Aww! so sweet!

Source: Purse Form - Coach USD98

PS: Just Kidding, I am too broke for this now :(

I need a wallet though.

2010-03-04T12:09:00.004+08:00

IF..

i sign up for CFA, i would be broke.

why i am so poor now?

2010-03-01T21:55:00.002+08:00

i am scared.

work. dad. health
one whole batch was asked to leave, effective this month.
i was called in too, given 3 mths before next assessment.

$2 lunch suddenly taste quite awful.
hope mummy eats up during lunch and dinner, for all i save for her to use

he is giving dad money when he leaves for taiwan
i felt useless that i can't do anything or not earning enough

i want a bowl of fish soup

2010-02-26T22:40:00.004+08:00

What Is Cancer?

Cancer is a group of diseases characterized by uncontrolled
growth and spread of abnormal cells. If the spread
is not controlled, it can result in death. Cancer is caused
by both external factors (tobacco, infectious organisms,
chemicals, and radiation) and internal factors (inherited
mutations, hormones, immune conditions, and mutations
that occur from metabolism). These causal factors may
act together or in sequence to initiate or promote carcinogenesis.
Ten or more years often pass between exposure to
external factors and detectable cancer. Cancer is treated
with surgery, radiation, chemotherapy, hormone therapy,
biological therapy, and targeted therapy.

..........A cancer’s stage is based on the primary tumor’s size
and whether it has spread to other areas of the body. A
number of different staging systems are used to classify
tumors. The TNM staging system assesses tumors in
three ways: extent of the primary tumor (T), absence or
presence of regional lymph node involvement (N), and
absence or presence of distant metastases (M). Once
the T, N, and M are determined, a stage of I, II, III, or IV
is assigned, with stage I being early and stage IV being
advanced disease......

Source: http://www.cancer.org/downloads/STT/500809web.pdf

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How can I make you eat, mama? I know you are worried, so am I. I had to act happy in the office, taking part in the activities, finishing whatever task given to me after office hours before I could rush over to visit pa before the cut off time of 8pm. Jia you ok?

Tell you a secret, I am having chest pain... shh.. I would be fine.. No tears in front of both of them because I must show that I am strong and able to take it.

2010-02-25T22:41:00.004+08:00

papa, jia you..

we will fight this long battle with you.

ps: i need to find a new job that pays higher due to donno what is going to happen very soon

i need part time assignment, anyone?

I promise not to cry in front of mama, cos I need to take care of her at home

I got to study hard now because the test is tomorrow, I must score and pass.

I will be strong, don't worry

2010-02-20T20:55:00.004+08:00

yes, i won the best compliment this month for going the extra mile. she read out the details of what i did and everyone congrats me. but i wanted to share with 3 people, yet i couldn't express my joy. i wanted to tell u, but u were out running. i wanted to go home and take them, but 1 is sleeping, 1 is on the phone. yet he says i don't care about him when he woke up. i did not ask how is it, i did not take a look at him, i did not care about him.

but the truth it i did take a look at you, i wanted to ask but SHE WAS ON THE PHONE CHATTING. WHAT CAN I DO. by the time she finished chatting, u woke up and accused me

so what if all strangers came forward to congrats me. i only wanted to tell 3 of us how happy i am when they read out my name and the details of what i did. even the best performance of 2009, came forward and asked me what i did, how i did it and why i did it.

yet i get scolded. i get blamed. i am being fault.

i hate me

2010-02-16T12:21:00.007+08:00

HUAT AR!

we go purple on chu er!

heart this purple dress from zara (:

this reunion dinner was fabulous. we had "san zheng hai wei" at seafood paradise.

1st day was fun because my mum and aunty taught paul how to play MJ and he won! omg! and i got lovely roses specially handcarried from Houston. we did not pay a cent for it cos it's from G! he got a couple of dozens of white, pink and red roses from houston.

we went dating on 2nd day of cny @ ikea after my house visiting and he got me new blue floral curtain + a mini catus. his bro got some furniture to redo the house. afterwhich was a stroll at the angbao riverwalk.

and it's godma's house today!

back to watching dvd at home while waiting for the parents to come home

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I am so tempted to get sth from Paris in March cos G is going

he keeps tempting me to get sth. he suggested a hermes wallet.. zzzzz

shld i get another chanel necklace?

will be getting a LC sling for mummy

Yes yes I will be spreeing very soon.. hang in there.. when details are confirmed, it shall be broadcast here and there

GONG XI FAI CAI

2010-02-12T20:48:00.004+08:00

$595! Shall I?

*Edited* Paul says i can buy another bag only when I start earning $4k. When I ask how about a wallet, he says it's a bag to store coins, so it's a bag. Therefore the same theory applies. BOO!!

will he ever get me a chanel or prada? or a bikins!! I really don't mind waiting

I long for a wallet first. The blue leather one is sold out when i went back wanting to bring it home, I was so sad that I got a pair of blue wedges instead using the Magic Card! oops!

2010-02-07T21:40:00.002+08:00

i am busy enjoying life now

been busy with driving lessons, it can never be so fun to drive on the road and chat anything under the sun with my instructor. lessons do not feel like lessons but a nice car ride. i have taken the test date, it would be in april. today he let me drive the car ALONE while he went to get bread because he was hungry. it was quite fun to be alone with his car, practising parking without poles. if u are still not aware, wef March, there would be no more poles during driving test. so what he did was to paste sticker on his window panel for me to gauge the angle to turn.

work is unsecure because u never know when u would be asked to leave. many have left and i hope i would stay till i find a better job with higher pay. this is just not suitable for my character. when managers do not like feedbacks, i feel useless because my mouth just can't shut suggesting new ideas and making improvements. they say i give too many feedbacks. oh well..

this is a poor month due to CNY. i bought goodies for the house and impt people. gave them more money. yet my parents aren't appreciate. they compare me with HIM because HE gave them $5000 compared to my pathetic $200 each. oh well.. i used up my saving this month to be a chinese santa claus. i did not really get new clothes. just gonna wear those 2 dresses i saved since dec and shoes I got from London.

i got random surf like necklaces and earrings. i love pretty little things. the blue leather wallet-cum-clutch is so pretty however i resisted the temptation and told myself that i can make do with this current one. if it is still there, i would bring u home in march.

last but not least, i love my new hair.

Or shall i say EVERYONE lovesss my new hair. i'm no boasting, everyone came to my table and said they love it when i returned back to work after my hair cut. it's rather expensive because i spent $140 on it for the cut and rebonding. but it's all worth it.

i look nerd i noe, but just shut ur mouth.

done my nails today with c but i was a little sad that i couldn't get my pedicure. so i decided to return to sg to do it after the trip and it was so impulsive! i walked into the shop and said i want to pedicure. after the entire thingy, i felt so much happier. i used the new magic card for this naughty act. oops!

2010-01-07T22:26:00.002+08:00

I am Sorry

i chose to work over meeting paul and ended up we lost each other

i chose to help one customer over meeting my boyfriend on time, who knows both of cell phone died and ended me stranded at the station for 1.5hours waiting for him.

i am not angry, i jus need to meet him, i need a comfort hug over work, over family problem.

i went to eat fries alone, had a rush to go to his house and sit beside him

i came home being nasty to him. i am sorry

i am stress over work, can't bear to leave it to my buddy, i don't trust him because the case is very urgent. i need to rush to approve one card by today and send to customer by tomorrow, hence i stayed up in the office and missed my boyfriend.

2010-01-03T00:26:00.002+08:00

If I get early converted, I will get this

Coach Peyton CarryAll in RED!

The red is hotter in real life.

Or Shld I get a Mulberry Bayswater in Black or Chocolate since Ms G might be going to LONDON!

Or save up for my Prada?

Oops! But I think my 2010's resolution is no new bag this year.

My 2nd resolution is no New Dresses till March.

2009-12-25T21:35:00.002+08:00

TGI Fridays

Our makeshift Christmas Dinner because Paul is on night shift this year. Boo!

The food sucks. overpriced. Though staff is friendly. We spent 90 bucks there. :(

I was on 2days MC before Christmas, coughing madly in the office and at home. How about leaving the clinic w/o paying? I did that. I like the medical benefits in my company. (:

MERRY CHRISTMAS 2009

Late Night MJ with BBF (:

AMK has the best KFC, go eat it. Nuggets, fries, Chicken, cakes, chocolates, chips, sweets and MJ from 7pm till 6am. We must be crazy.

Took a little nap and met Paul for yummy breakfast before we head home for a good nap. He is on night shift tonight!

Say Hello to Buttons!! Isn't she soo cute? Paul got me the latest Cherry Body Cream from Loccitane as well and the Citibank SMRT Card. Hohoho.

BFF got me a coach coin purse and a Coat from Modparade for my Bday and X'mas. I bought the pink coach wristlet as a present for myself from Bali Airport. The color is Soo sweet.

This is a pinkish year with soo many pinky stuff.

2010 New Year Resolution:

[1] NO NEW BAGS NEXT YR

(BFF and BF gave me the -_-" face when I told them)

[2] HOPE WE GET OUR FLAT

[3] A NEW JOB UNLESS THEY ARE GROOMING ME

(I can resign officially in March, however I will wait till I completed my 2nd product training and gotten a job with higher pay before I tender)

[4] CFA IN NOV 2010

[5] PASS MY DRIVING EXAM

Why do I have to work tomorrow?

MY MANAGER STILL OWE ME MY COMPLIMENT BELL!

It means nothing to her but it means a lot to me.

Have a great weekend! (:

2009-12-21T11:12:00.002+08:00

See what I end up with last night after going out for a walk,

Chunky Nude Heels from Everbest.

It is soo comfy. At least there is a pair in the store that is less aunty-looking

It is quite costly but the comfort level is excellent.

LOVELY ~

I know I have soo many pairs of shoes at home, but I can't resist this lovely item.

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Sooo.. after a long wait..

FINALLY I get to see my boyfriend today.

Off to dating...

2009-12-19T23:02:00.004+08:00

18/12/2009

The co's x'mas party, I left my camera at home and did not take any pic. Did not win any prizes but took home a goodie bag. Most of the items were from Robinsons cos we are affliated. guess a huge saving for the company. X'mas gift exchange was at 10.30pm and I got my wish - $20 Kino voucher. I hope my buddy likes his present. It was my first time hanging out at a pub, or shall I say the 2nd level of bq bar? I had some Australian beer, Crown whatever, it's not that fabulous. I still prefer my Fosters. Heard some shocking news that one colleg tendered and boss threaten him. Another newbie is in next yr welfare's comm.. and i wonder how someone who always take leave can gain high popularity. but SHE likes guys.. so i guess we know why. very uncertain about my position.. till march, i can leave officially if I want to..

19/12/2009

Happy Birthday Ah Ma

Slept through Sat Afternoon and the evening was spent at Grandma's house. How I wish I am still a kid, with no worries, getting the attention from the adults.

Have a good laugh at my cute little nephews.. .

Paul got me Buttons. G got me a surprise bday-cum-x'mas present. I am so touched. C treated me to a fabulous dinner. I am so guilty :(

I felt love.

20/12/2009

He was sick at work last night, hence our date is cancelled today. Alone on a weekend w/o the boyfriend sucks, especially when it is so hard to get a day where both of us are not working. We are both on shift work, so can you imagine that he has to book me for our day out and I have to mark on my calendar. BOO ~

Lousy Weekend. I stayed at home.

BOO!

The photoshoot is called off. Everyone is disappointed, so am I.

Out to squeeze with the crowd. I don't wanna waste my weekend at home rotting.

2009-12-11T23:32:00.003+08:00

Lalala.......

Shopping is Always Fun with the Best Friend

2010 Planner / Alarm Clock / Random Card Holder / X'mas Present for Gift Exchange / Toy to entertain myself @ Work

Finally found a nice 2010 planner. It's soo cheap, only S$3.10 after 20% discount at Prologe @ ION. Till 13/12/2009 only. Storewide 20%

SNOW WHITE

Can You Balance them?

I am going to leave this in the office so I can entertain myself while waiting at work.. Hee hee

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For My Buddy - His Christmas Wish is sth to decorate his table. Hope he likes this. Good Mind Game and cute to look at. I likeeeee

**Christmas Wish**

Miu Miu 'Matelasse' Ibisco Wallet in Grey

(Picture shows Black)

Retail for S$530

Can I ship back from London? Hee

2009-11-28T12:58:00.001+08:00

Bye Singapore!

Yes yes, we are bringing Teddy along for some sunshine!!

HAHA

2009-11-23T23:44:00.002+08:00

H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y D E A R E S T

We had a nice dinner at ION - Go! Go! Curry! after my work and it ends off with wudi KOI Bubble Tea.

Instead of me getting him a gift, he got me a pretty dress on Sunday from L'zzie @ Bugis. Although I was really noti on Sunday, making a big fuss, he did not scold me. The clothes are soo pretty but very expensive. I guess I will never bear to buy a dress that costs S$82.00. But it is soo pretty. When I stepped out of the dressing room, two boyfriends stared at me, while my boyfriend did not really bother with me as he was busy on his hp. Haha. I have a cool boyfriend. Anyway, the workmanship and quality is good. I shall return for more pretty clothes for CNY! When he says good, it is really good. Sometime back Paul mentions that if I slim down, he will dress me up with pretty clothes. It is soo tempting.... I shall try my best.

I am only working 3 days this week and 2 days next week! Yahoo!

Handle less customers = less work.

Today, H (= my boss) told me to only email her for SUPER URGENT cases, as she is handling escalation cases today. Hence I was taking my own time to do my work, so we have less work and I can clear all my cases before I go on leave.. Otherwise my poor buddies will suffer. I shall be nice and not bully them.

2009-11-18T18:30:00.003+08:00

Hello!

Work is superb busy.

Last week was crazy when the system was down suddenly in the morning and I lost all my work when the screen went BLANK. We had to take orders and arrange for call back later in the afternoon. It doesn't help when it is the busiest period of the month and everyone is calling in now. I broke my personal records with 100 customers last Friday. It was madness. I thought I was just challenging myself. I had fun and everyone around me was amazed by my records. Sat was spent with some children at Snow City. It was a charity event organised by my department to take spastic children out. Mon was our company's function where CEO gave an interesting speech. I have been working soo hard and leaving office around 10pm every day. Last night I left at 11+ haa.. Oh well, I love to work.

It feels good to be having a weekday OFF. Had my driving lesson in the morning though I woke up at 9.45am and rushed over and reached at 10.15am. Lesson was at 10am. I did not slack at home today, but work hard by teaching my two lovely kids music and earning some extra income. It is good to take a break and here I am typing this blog after missing for such a long time.

Overall work is ok, very routine and some nasty customers who are simply so stubborn. Anyway I cried once at work due to one stupid woman for being so demanding. I believe when I leave this job, I am able to take all kinds of nonsesnse or demands from almost everyone. Good softskills like what CH told me. Oh and I am selected for this month's magazine. Better start writing something about myself as the due date is this Friday!

I have been good. No new clothes for quite some time though I bought a pair of Nude Pumps from Heatwave the other day during lunch. I had no choice as my "new" heels broke! It was my first time wearing it. Oh well, serve me right for keeping it in the cupboard for so long. Anyway the Nude Pumps are soo nice. Lovely choice. I shall be good and control myself. Time to save for our little secret next year.

I shall do a facial today. Grace got me a sleeping mask from Korea. So sweet of her. Love. tsk tsk.

*H*O*L*I*D*A*Y*

We will be away next weekend to celebrate my birthday!

We are going to...

tell you when I am back. :)

Have a good week ahead! Till I write again, take care!

sab

2009-10-18T12:56:00.003+08:00

I passed the last test required in my work on Fri.

And it happens also that it marks the day when I officially receive my first pay in my life. (Let's ignore those mola I have been getting in the past through those random work that I have been doing)

We had a good dinner after work on Friday, we chat about work and future plans.

Sat was spent with Paul. We slack our way at home and had a wonderful time wrestling and napping. I must be really tired, I fell aslp immediately. Usually I would toss and turn and disturb him. And randomly we decided to go drinking at night. So we headed to Brewerkz @ Riverside Point for dinner. I had Golden Ale while he had IPA. Yummilicous Pizza and Fish & Chips. We were there partly for the Live Soccer Match. I was a little drunk and I talked rubbish. Haha. He banned me from drinking in future. :( No way, I still love my chilled Foster. It was a nice dinner and it was my treat. Dinner was a little expensive but it's worth it. Food is great, though the beer was not that cold. I prefer drinking in UK. :)

We walked over to Liang Court to get some snacks before he sent me home. I love spending time with the boyfriend.

I had a super weird dream last night. Sg had a really bad earthquake and we had to evaculate from our house. I brought nothing with me except my phone. We ran to the field opp our house and watched as the building shaked. In my mind, I was so worried about my bags in the wardrobe. I imagine Ms Blackie squashed. And some one stole Ms Huang. When the earthquake stopped, with all the windows shattered, I ran back home to rescue my two bags. I was glad that they were safe and sound in their boxes. I packed them away in a big paper, took my wallet, documents, jewellery. I did not bother abt Fatty and Teddy and the 2 boxes of Lego hidden in my wardrobe that were meant for Paul. And soon.. I woke up.

Haa. What a funny dream.

Have a good Sunday! I am heading back to office to read through the documents before I start picking up calls officially on Tuesday.

2009-10-15T22:43:00.002+08:00

To M:

It has been eight years. We bumped into each other many many times when we parted, the first few meetings I would hide away from you. But we catch up with each other a few years later...

Now, it feels really weird to spend 3.5 days with you. I start to remember everything we did together... And you chose to talk to me in Mandarin, just like yesteryear.

I don't think we would ever spend 3.5 days together ever again.

The last 1/2 day tomorrow, I can do it. And I think Cara likes you. She gives me a really funny stare when you spoke to me and we alighted at Novena.

Hello.. and Good Bye

sab

To everyone: I am sorry for this entry, I had to tell someone and this is the only space I could vent it out. He was the first.

To the boyfriend: Thank you for trusting in me.

To myself: Paul is a great guy. M was the guy.

2009-10-14T22:04:00.002+08:00

*BRAIN FRIED*

Firstly, I woke up at 8am today! I should be out of the house by 8.15am the latest. So I told myself that I shall not rush and I will take a cab to work. In my mind I thought the fare would cost max $10.00. So I happily went to shower, put on some powder and left the house at 8.30am. Hop onto a cab after 5 minutes of waiting. BUT... THE ERP CHARGES ARE CRAZY!! My heart was racing when I saw the first ERP charge at $4... Why so X? Then we went through the 2nd ERP gantry and it cost me another $2.50. So the whole trip cost me $16.50 when I finally alighted in front of the office. Serve me right for waking at 8am. I shall be good and never shld I be late again in future. I rushed to the lift and our CHAIRMAN was standing there. So I greeted him a very good morning. I stood behind him wanting to let him get into the lift first but he told me to get in. He couldn't squeeze in eventually. I almost wanted to intro myself and say I was from whatver department. HAHA But I din of course.

And CH called me in the lift, telling me that we had to attend a meeting at 6.30pm for a new product that will be launched next week. AND Orientation ended at 5pm. I did not grumble. I am a happy girl willing to work hard. With the 1.5hour break, we went back to the office, check some emails, read some documents and I was happily munching on snacks. They were teasing me that my bag is a Doremon's bag filled with snacks all the time. Tsk tsk. I snack a LOT during training. Oops!

So I stayed in the office for a while after the meeting and left at 8pm. Super shacked when I get home. I skipped dinner tonight, hope that the packet of Medium Fries would last me till tml morning.

I shall take a nice long bath and sleep before 11pm tonight so that I will leave the house by 8.10am tml.

FROM 20 October 2009, Tue, 2PM, I will be picking up live calls. SUPER SCARY. You cannot imagine the stress and the funny customers that we handle. I am going back office on Sunday to self study and sort out everything. I Must be Efficient and accurate on the first day of taking calls. I can do it!

With a nice long weekend in Nov, I shall go somewhere to celebrate my 24th Birthday. I took only 1.5 days leave to get that 5 wonderful days off from work. BANGKOK or VIETNAM or MACCAU?

To The Boyfriend: PLEASE DO NOT GET ME ANY PRESENT. Let's go for a nice holiday!

I LOVE MY WORK SCHEDULE.

2009-10-11T11:54:00.004+08:00

Craving for some Longchamp Bags?

Spree #5 is opened here: http://community.livejournal.com/spreesgalore/2010003.html

I'm thinking of getting the Coin Purse. It is sooo Cute. Oops!

If I ever get it, I will post the family photo of all the sizes. It should be quite interesting.

I shall repack my wardrobe. It bursted! =X

Next week is orientation + induction. What a great week ahead!

Have a Nice Sunday!

Edited

I think this is much cuter than the LC coin purse!

2009-10-10T00:55:00.002+08:00

why I will never see my savings grow. whenever it is growing slowly, somethings happen and the money is gone. i really wanna save up for a house.

This is life isn't it?

SHIT ALWAYS HAPPEN

But no matter what happens, I will stand by You.

Even if I have to sell Ms Blackie and Xiao Huang, I will do it.

2009-10-08T22:22:00.002+08:00

O M G

I PASSED MY FINAL TEST with FULL MARKS!!

but he realised I made a little mistake and I got 1 mark deducted - 79/80 :(

NVM. Let's learn from mistakes so that I will become better!

We had our CALL IN today, I was the first to start and I am really really very nervous. My heart was beating SOOOO fast. He could really tell. But I am glad that he said it was a good call. After some practice, the 2nd call was better. I will practice hard and become a good executive. More call in tml! it's communication session with A tomorrow. I hope it end by 8pm cos I wanna meet Paul for dinner.

Had dinner with Carene, lots of catching up and we went shopping thereafter! I got 1 top and dress from Uniqlo. 1 lovely Floral Skirt and Blouse from Cotton On. I have to reward myself for working hard. Hee

Happy Happy Girl!

Tml is Friday and it's Casual day! What shall I wear tml?

I have an urge to take Ms Blackie out tml! But will I get stares from any1 in the office?

2009-10-06T21:48:00.002+08:00

Xiao Bai is here!

However the actual color looks more creamy. Hence it shall be renamed Xiao Huang!

She is lovely right? She is my dream work bag. Coach Leigh in Gardenia. I have been eyeing on this bag for 2 years in Whiskey. Until this color pop up on evilbay, and the price was right. I had to buy it. Shipping from US is extremely expensive but I will handle with lots of love. It doesnt weigh as heavy as I thought. The size is prefect for work but I have no idea when I would be using it. Workplace seems quite casual, mostly young people, hence I should tone down.

Tomorrow would be taking Test 3

I am feeling quite emo. Bcos of how people preceive my job, my self esteem is soo low now. I am a Highly Paid High Class Call Operator working in the BEST in Singapore.

Till I pass the last 2 Tests, I shall blog more. Next week gonna be on Orientation and Induction, what a slacking week. Coming Sat is company chalet. Hope to meet the rest of the people in my department.

Work schedule for Nov is out, I loove it! I love my job actually, don't have to face customers face to face. Mostly working alone. Culture is young. Ideal location, awesome environment. Cheap food nearby. I have a super long weekend in the last week of Nov. Thinking of swaping that Sat (1/2 day) with someone, so I could travel out for a short holiday. Thinking of going to BKK for shopping but... See how it goes.. Really wish to go shopping for work clothes and make som pencil skirts and nice blouse for work. And it is the weekend before my BIRTHDAY! Should I? or I shall be good and not waste money?

Xiao Huang smells so nice.. her leathery smell is yummilicious!

Good Night! I have been sleeping by 11pm every night yet I yawn during training. Tsk tsk

2009-10-04T12:52:00.003+08:00

My Baby is HOME!

Sent it in for repair due to ONE missing crystal on plate. They were really nice to hunt for a brand new plate from Paris, got it shipped back and replace the whole plate without any charge. Lovely Service in Singapore, Chanel. I requested for the fabric camelia and she gave one to me without asking any question.

The bag in the sealed paper bag was sitted at the corner of my table for 2 weeks until I decided to open it today. My next target should be the Large Shopping Tote. And when I turn 35, I hope to buy a Birkins! Read the forum and there are so many terms for the different designs, material and hardware. Nvm I have 11 years to decide what I really want.

Chanel Drill Flap 2008 in Lambskin

From London, Selfridges, Chanel

A37560Y04847

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I can't wait for XIAO BAI to arrive in my house!

PAID on 3 Oct 2009!

Date & Time : 02/10/2009 10:34 AM Status : Arrival in Singapore (Unpaid)
Date & Time : 30/09/2009 10:51 AM Status : Arrival in Singapore (Unpaid)

Date & Time : 28/09/2009 03:14 PM Status : Arrival in Singapore (Unpaid)

Date & Time : 24/09/2009 11:01 PM Status : Processed in U.S.A

I think I shall be done for this year. Shall be good and not buy any more bags.

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It's Modparade Open House this weekend. 20% storewide and I am a huge fan of their apparel.

I wish to go but I shall be a good girl and not spend money.

2009-10-04T01:25:00.003+08:00

i am beginning to feel that i should tone down to suit in this environment. act blur and pretend that i am super new in this adult world.

i love my watch but i feel that someone might think that how i could afford this watch when i just started working? not even to mention that watch mummy gave me, it starts with a little S... i shall nver wear it to work i guess. my wallet is striking with all that G logo printed on and my lovely pink dusty bag with the nice pinky checkered hankie might catch some attention. while i noticed the rest of the people are carrying brandless stuff. there was a moment that i wanted to carry the big beach checkered bag to work on Fridays but i stopped to think. what happen if i carry the lovely dream bag to work and people might talk about it. how can i afford it?

from this week, i shall change out of my wallet to the old and black plain wallet from project shop i got when i was in jc 1. perhaps a less flashy bag to that floral cheapo bag that is supposed to be a shopping bag.

BUT yucks! the combination looks so ugly if i power dress. i can't bring myself to carry that bag if i am wearing formal attire.

maybe that aldo or pedder heels should be hidden at home too. i should wear some ugly flats that look cheap and inexpensive.

maybe i shld change out of my guess collection watch to the cheapo plastic watch from swatch? but yucks, it looks freaking unmatched! or maybe i shld go dig for the casio watch that uncle got me for my 21st but i hid it away in some box bcos i hate it. it is so ugly.

i paid for the shipping of xiao bai and it shld arrive sometime next week. seeing this suitation, i don't think i can carry it to work. it may attract some attention.

must i hide my fav necklace at home too? hide away the double c and wear it only on weekends?

hello, I love beautiful things.

2009-10-03T10:28:00.002+08:00

this week went by very quickly. we had our system test on tue and i passed! 75.5/80. a little disappointed for those questions that i got wrong, but nvm i will learn from my mistake. must be extremely careful when i am on duty in future.

lectures and training are tiring as usual. we felt the earthquake. i was the one who alerted them in the room. haa no one believed me at first, until i told them that it is true. everyone outside is continuing answering calls, working. no one leave the office. so what happen when there is an actual emergency? hmm..

and one day in the pantry waiting to wash my water bottle, sky was at the basin and when he is done, he called my name. he remembered me.. haa he is the one who took my picture for the org chart. he is quite cute. hee..

had dinner with a + other staff in her gang. it was a good dinner + coffee session as i managed to find out a lot abt the company and how things work. the conclusion is even if the performance is good, the contract may not be extended and u will be dismissed. 1 of the girls present at the dinner was told to leave and the other was given another yr of contract, instead of converting to perm. now i feel a little unsteady and i am starting to regret not getting the YOG offer. even though yog is also a contract, but it is after a gov job? i may find a good and stable job after the contract ends. but it is over.

i have to focus on this job now! and i was adviced to stand out and attend ALL events. I need people to know that i exist otherwise 1 year later, it's bye bye for me.

For our future so that we could have a little toy's room, I am going to work hard and do all it takes to be converted into a perm staff!! the benefits are quite good.

going back to office today to self-study. my 3rd test in on MONDAY!! This is on procedures.. so many things to take note. Aza!

2009-09-27T11:07:00.006+08:00

edited!!!

oh.. i over-estimated my budget and I am left with only S$300 for next month. Haaha.. Dear Ken, can I pay you when I get my pay on 16th? Otherwise, I have to eat grass and drink water for lunch from NOW TILL 16th! *edited* I missed out on the refund to one girl of S$200, now I am left with S$100.. till 16th next Month.. hahahahaha

How long can S$40 on my ezlink last me? Each trip to work costs me S$1.11, per day @ S$2.22, therefore, I can last 18 days..

I have S$22 in my wallet right now.. hahaha Lunch is freaking expensive at Raffles Place. I shall pack food to work from tml onwards and bring ONE apple so I won't feel hungry so easily. Shall make spag for tml. Perhaps I can ask if Kor wanna send me to work tml. Since the roads should be unblocked after the race tonight. I can save on transport fee!! HAHA but most likely he won't send me to work.

And my Xiao Bai is still at Vpost waiting for me to collect her. The shipping is sooo X @ S$66+.. I miss her but I can't afford to bring her home now. I have 2 weeks to decide before they decide to charge me additional "rental" fee.

Since 2005, this is the first time I AM POOR and Feeling Damn POOR.

and I am super exhausted!! Sat I was soo busy, out to teach K, back to Post office, out to teach Q, back and glad the parcel is here and spent the time packing, met G for lunch, went OFFICE to study then went PS to meet G and home. I wanted to take a cab home so I can reach home in 5 mins from Park Mall but G stopped me.

G: You have no $, don't waste $, your bus stop is right in front of you and your bus is so fast.
Me: But the taxi stand is also right in front of me, and the cabs are in q.
G: There are ERP Charges, city charges. Don't waste money, you have no $
Me: But I am very very tired.
G: Your bus is very fast. You have no $.
Me: Ok.. *But I looked at the taxi stand and cross the road to the bus stop*

Her bus came and she left. Not long after, she TEXTED ME!!!

"Is your bus here or did you take a cab?"

My bus came and I went up. The msg is priceless.

That's what friends are for. And that's my BEST-EST FRIEND!!!

Late at night, I was surfing F21. I asked Grace if she wanted anything so that we will share the shipping. After 1 hour of clicking, discussing and adding items to the cart, I was at CHECKOUT, keying in my details etc and Suddenly I stopped and think. I think I do not have $ for all these now. Despite that I was "buying" work clothes and I chose those that were relatively cheap and afforable. But still, I closed the screen and told Grace about it. She understood and said it is ok. She is my good-est friend.

Endure and I will succeed.

I have a test coming Tue, good luck. Shall rest and help Paul complete his Project today.

*PS: I have savings but I really don't wish to touch the 2 savings a/c. One is meant for our future, one is meant for super emergency. So now, I have to bear with edited *S$100* in the regular a/c with S$22 in my wallet and S$40 credit on my ezlink card. I can do it!

2009-09-25T22:23:00.002+08:00

First Week of Work-Training

There are four of us in this batch and four other seniors join us for this training. Our trainer is awesome, always find ways to explain to us. Lecture starts on the very first day of training immediately, it was fun learning sooo much about this product that I will be doing.

On the 2nd day of training, I took the bus to work, left house at 8am, but i reached office only at 9am! The 30minutes journery lasted 40 minutes. I was so stress due to the jam, a little lost but found my way and reached office at 9am sharp. Trainer told me never to take bus in the morning. HOD came in for introduction and half way thru the lecture after lunch, there was a launch for a new product and we were called to attend the introduction. So this is how things happen, everything is immediate. I had lunch with Li Jie. I stayed back to study for the test on the next day. Yes! Test is immediately on the 3rd day of training. Trainer was so nice to stay back with me and A, while I asked many many questions and stimulated many examples to make sure I understand.

I went home to read up more infor online, though limited, I revised the main features. Slept at 12mn. Revision follows by the 2 hour Test. After lunch, the lecture for part 2 starts. This is where the fun begins. Its learning abt the system. The next test is next Tue! Had R&R, lots of fun, self intro for newbies, they had a mini F1 Race and updates abt Oct's events. I like the culture in my company. Events are conducted monthly. So for Oct, there will be a chalet, brisk walk, course -wine or makeup and Free Breakfast for 2 Mondays. Last but not least, Theme Day - Colors. We have to dress up in Color Theme for Friday. And I love Fridays! It's Casual Day. I can wear dresses on weekdays as well. Happiness! Can't wait to wear all my collection of dresses.

I passed the 1st Test with 91%. A little careless mistake here and there. I will work harder! The passing mark is 85% and anything below that, Retest or Fire! Yes Yes, It is that strict in our company. But we are the Best in Singapore. It is better to work hard now then to make mistake during work. I will work super duper hard!

Great view from my office. Taken from our training room. Awesome!

We hear the F1 cars practicing in the afternoon. SOO Loud. I saw part of the 1st race tonight before I left home at 7pm. I am enjoying myself, though it is very tiring and intense. I have been waking up at 6.45am because I am so excited about work. I eat my breakfast and leave home around 8-8.15am.

I look forward to learning more about system. Heard that the toughest part is the last part when the procedures come in. I am going back to office to self study this weekend! Haa... Loving work!

When work starts, I have to work on Sat for 1/2 the day. Hence I need to reschedule the lessons for K and Q. Work schedule is based on 2 weeks of Mon to Sat (1/2), followed by 2 weeks of Shift = Any 2 days OFF. Hence I am required to work even on Sat/Sun/PH. But I will get weekday off. Anyway I am ok with it. I can go shopping on Weekday when everyone is at work.

17 days of training, 4 down, 13 MORE!

Have a Great Weekend! (:

2009-09-20T19:21:00.003+08:00

*Edited*

S-H-O-P-P-I-N-G

So pretty in Patent Purple

40% from World of Sports

I bought a Cordless Phone today, Philips CD240. Now I can chat on my bed without using my handphone.

I am all ready to start Work on Tuesday! (:

DHL Called while I was out shopping. The black box arrived in my house in the afternnon today. L is really very efficient. This shipment contains 19 Bags - including 1 for mum and 1 order from Cousin. I went home and rip open the big box.

LongChamp LP Bags - in ALL Sizes!

For your reference (:

The lunch bag spells CUTENESS.

[Color Galore]

I am s0 in love with the Navy in Medium Short Handle.

Shld I?? I think Paul will scold me. I am shocked to see that most of the bags in this batch are MADE IN FRANCE.

Mummy, please love your Chocolate Large Shopper in Long Handle. It's NOT Cheap. Please do not poke safety pin thru the bag.

2009-09-19T09:37:00.002+08:00

It's time to learn D-R-I-V-I-N-G!!!!!!

I passed my final yesterday in 10 minutes and I was the first one to leave the room! Lalala

The budget is S$208 per month

Mum: I sponser u.

Me: *Keep quiet*

Mum: How much are you giving me every month?

Me: I pay myself

MUAHAHAHAHAHA

Yesterday I took out all my shoes to stock count - 27 excluding birkenstocks and after throwing away 3 pairs. I took a picture and wanted to post it up but I think I shall not do that.

No more shopping. Be GOOD!

Monthly Entertainment + Food budget = S$300 Cash

No budget to shop or buy anything for myself, so Paul says he will buy for me!

I love my boyfriend!

2009-09-17T14:38:00.003+08:00

I WAS WORKING OUT MY FINANCE AND REALISED THAT I HAVE NOTHING MUCH LEFT IN MY PERSONAL ACCOUNT AFTER CLEARING ALL THE BILLS.

I WAS TOO NOTI TO BUY THAT COACH BAG. OH WELL.. IT BETTER BE A REAL BEAUTY. CAN'T WAIT TO SEE IT!

I ADDED A NEW INSURANCE PLAN TO PROTECT MYSELF - COSTLY AFFAIR BUT I THINK IT IS WORTH IT. PAYING ONE LUMP SUM, S$288 GONE JUST LIKE THAT

I SERIOUSLY THINK I AM SAVING TOO MUCH FOR THE JOINT ACCOUNT. BUT I WANT TO BUY A FLAT, SO I MUST BE GOOD AND SPEND LESS

I AM GOING TO TRY OUT THIS PLAN OF WITHDRAWING A LUMP SUM AT THE BEGINNING OF THE MONTH TO CONTROL MY SPENDING. I GIVE MYSELF S$300 PER MONTH FOR FOOD AND ENTERTAINMENT. NO MORE SWIPING OF CARDS.

NO MORE SHOPPING, I AM SERIOUSLY SERIOUS!

*SORRY FOR THE CAP, I AM JUST TOO SHOCKED*

I SHOULD WORK HARDER TO FIND ADDITIONAL INCOME

I WAN TO BUY A FLAT!

2009-09-16T22:01:00.002+08:00

I went Shopping again

Children's Day presents for my 2 music students and one pink pouch for myself. Haa

Lovely White sneakers from Iluma.

I need to sleep early tonight.

CHEST PAIN

Night (:

2009-09-16T13:46:00.002+08:00

First Love - CHANEL

Should I get the silver Classic Double C Studs? I have very sensitive ears but it is just so lovely.

I have been packing my room for the past few days and I had so much fun reorganising my table, shelves, cupboard. I got some pretty clear boxes from Daiso and a nice little coak board for notices!

I made a little pocket for vouchers and random receipts from one of the smallest envelope I found.

Xiao Qi looks so cute in his new glasses! HHAAA

More stuff to clear and pack! Shall leave it till tomorrow.

OFF to shopping with Ger then Dinner date with Paul!

2009-09-13T10:20:00.001+08:00

Our First Trip to Marina Barrage for ICE CREAM!

There is a free shuttle bus from Marina Bay MRT Station, just follow the crowd. The ride takes around 5 minutes.

Many years ago, someone told me that he will take me to fly kite. But many years later, that someone FLY my KITE. Haaaaaa..

We had the Triple Euphoria - The limited edition flavors were quite average. Not really soooo special.

So sorry for my chubby face. All due to the nonstop feeding of ice cream and FOOD by Paul!! I am equally guilty. I promise to do something after I finish that Tub of Hagen Daz Belgian Chocolate hidding in my freeze. oops!

Work starting on Tue, 15 Sep 2009 and I have lunch appointments booked for the whole of next week! Yuppies! Godma is going to meet me for lunch and bring me around the area.

Today's cousin birthday and I got him a Fossil watch of his choice, sharing with Ling Jie. Soo vintage..

Style #: FS4474

I am ordering from Longchamp again, join me if you are craving for some foldable shopping bag. Getting one Long Handle for Mummy. The other day, she was telling me to give pa S$100 when I get my first pay and S$200 for the other months.. Oh well.. I have already planned out my budget and how muchie to give to them. So when she told me that, I was a little unhappy for the request and thought she should wait for me to give them. And my plan is to give them S$200 each for every month. Nevermind, I shall give pa S$200 on my first pay and nothing for mummy! But getting the Longchamp Bag that will cost me the same amount.

AND.. I am such a Noti Girl. I have a little parcel coming from USA. Update
with pictures when it arrived. Finally it's mine!

Did I tell you that I have 21 Days of Leave? Tsk tsk. Kor was saying he has only 26 Days and that is after working for SOOO many years. Yahoo!

I can't wait to wear all my office clothes and dresses, with the killer heels and ballet flats and my HUGE collection of BAGS! Haha.. I am all ready to Power Dress, as what I have been telling Carene about it. Did I tell u that I have 5 Jackets ready for work and 1 more with MS GRACE. But on a side note, I think my job is quite slack and I do not need to meet anyone, so perhaps I can dress down. Shall monitor the dress code of the staff in the office..

I have been soo excited that I am waking up between 6-8am yesterday and Today.

Best friend came over on Thursday and we packed my wardrobe, particularly the Bag corners. And my accessories / beauty corner. I cleared out 5 bags of junks and now both spaces look so neat now. Using the 2 large boxes from Selfridges, I packed my bags into 2 categories - Never use and Seldom Use. They are filled and the rest of the bags are out on the shelf as Always use. I shall find a day to sell those in the Never-Use-Box. I left a space for the parcel that is arriving from the US and promised to keep just 15 bags. The rest have to go. Self-control!

My wardrobe has more space for more clothes BUT.. I shall be good. (:

Kor is going to Tokyo on Wed, hope he would get me some Krispy Kreme. Tsk Tsk

Ciao! Heading out to Cousin's house for the dinner.

Call me for lunch if you are around Raffles Place. I love my office, it takes only 20 minutes for Bus-Train-Walk and 30minutes for Bus.

2009-09-11T23:51:00.000+08:00

I

AM

H I R E D!

Today!

I was given an immediate job offer at the last round of my interview. I had to give her my reply immediately - Now or Never! So I asked to give me 10minutes to call the agency to verify some details and she said ok. Soo the first person I called was PAUL!! Then I called YOG immediately to ask if I get that job and she refuses to tell me, asked me to wait for the call next week. Too bad then, I decided to take up OCBC due to the stability.

Staring on 15 Sept 2009!! Yahoo!

It's in a BANK. Hohoho..

2009-09-09T21:47:00.002+08:00

what right do you have to invade others privacy and decision.

EGO is NOTHING ok! Wake up your idea OLD MAN. Stop living in your own 50s world. This is 2009.

Just because of you, the host has to change his plan and it's his BIRTHDAY PLAN.

I HATE YOU.

2009-09-09T21:47:00.000+08:00

2009-09-09T00:08:00.002+08:00

It's not easy walking down with you given our personalities, especially when I am facing choices. I just want to let you know that I'm doing this for you and for us. And I wish to hear your opinion. Give me a space to breathe and feel unhappy. I am tired. Running to you, going to you. I need a wall to lean and I thought I could lean on you. I do not wish to deal with the many issues arising at home, the problems and trouble they are giving me. It is not that easy to ignore them, she repeats the issue almost every day. And yes, I am very stress now hunting for a job. I hope to get one and we could build our little dream fast. I want to escape from this cage and fly towards you. Help me please. Be my listening ears, all I need is for you to listen and help me decide whenever I am lost in making choices.

For tomorrow, there is another round of battle. I may become the next shift worker walking on the streets on a weekday, if I excel in the test this Friday.

Good Night dearest, you know I love you more than anything else.

2009-09-05T23:49:00.001+08:00

The Best Carrot Cake in Singapore - Whampoa Market

The Sweet Little Things

Oh! Ooold Friends

We Were Out Shopping on a Lovely Sat when the Boy Friends were missing.

If only everyday is like today...

2009-09-03T22:47:00.000+08:00

Singapore to Heathrow is at S$1143 all inclusive via Emirates

I am TEMPTED TO fly to London NOW! And do some major shopping!

2009-09-01T12:15:00.000+08:00

i am down with fever and flu since Sat night..

Paul came over with 10 big red apples and a large whipped potato on Sunday evening. it was s surprise and shocked.

Happy Teacher's Day!

Keane got me some handmade flowers and a hp accessories with my name on it.

I have been sleeping for 2 days as the medicine made me really drowsy.

Back to my cozy bed nursing the flu bug and Paul is serving the nation now! ICT for 2 weeks. :( I miss him

2009-08-26T00:08:00.005+08:00

I will build my little empire bit by bit

2009-08-25T00:46:00.002+08:00

A Frozen Flower (Korean)

My First R21 Show and it's with GRACE!

So the night of our Juzone mini gathering, she randomly suggested that she plans to take MC the next day and asked if I wanted to watch a movie. I was pestering her to go jogging with me but she insisted that she is unwell. Anw, she texted me the next morning at 9.05am that she is on her way to the doctor and decided to catch the movie with me at 1045am Lido! I saw the message at 9.35am when I woke up. So I agreed and made my way to Lido and got us S$2.50 McDonald's Bf.

Since it's my FIRST Time watching a R21 rating film, I was pretty excited. Yes yes I am super slow, though I am turning 24 this year, I have not watched a single R21 movie. Haha Anyway Ms Grace had to emphasis that this is an artistic film. To my surprise the cinema was filled with single Old Uncle. I believe we were the only young people other than the two middle age ladies a row in front of us. It was a great movie and I enjoyed it very much. Though there were some nude scenes and lots of killing and fighting, I love the plot, storyline, outfits, scenerio and the setting. And both of the actors are soo Handsome. Gogo-gaga we went in the cinema.

GI Joe

so we went JB one day to catch GI Joe - 11RM/pax + 8.50RM Large Popcorn Combo + ultra cheap Swenson at only 18RM For two of us!!

The Proposal

Oh.. I love her outfit and her CL Killer Heels! and of course that Orange Hermes Bag, though I prefer a black one so that it matches all my outfit. BUT I don't think I will even get one because it costs S$10,000+

Of all Movie,

I HAVE NOT WATCH UPPPPPP

I wanna catch it in 3-Digital... But he is going for ICT next week.. Looks like no UP for me..

After burning my body for the past week with endless activities running round the entire half of our tiny red dot, I decided to give myself a break today. AND I ignored the calls in the morning that cost me S$90 for rotting for 5.5hours. I guess rest is more important than anything else. So I slept through the entire morning and woke up at 12PM. Haa I roll around in bed and crawled out for some cereal an hour later. Watched tv, surf some internet, watchech the last epi of Prison Break, Nap, pack the parcel, headed to the post office, went for a run, meetup with a girl, went to NTUC, dinner, tv..

It was a good rest.

I have plans for Tomorrow.

If someone calls me in the morning, I will crawl out of the bed to earn my S$90. Otherwise I will go for a body massage. Then lunch with a pri sch friend that I have not met for at least 12 years, pop by Chanel to collect my bag, Post office, SimLim to change the lousy New battery, YCK (Finally after sooo long) and AMK to meet Ger for Dinner!

I love my current life.

But I love making some good income too.

Someone out there, please call me for an interview and offer me a job.

I will work my ass out for you to earn my pay and I mean it.

I am on a cereal diet and light soupy dinner meal now. I hope to go for a jog/run on alternate days at my fav corner. I put on my new Nike Special Edition gorgeous shoes and my new purple shorts today. I ran for 50 minutes and it felt so good to perspire. Hello Big Circle, See you on Thursday! I need to get rid of my square face!

Night :)

2009-08-23T21:00:00.000+08:00

This is the FIRST TIME I ever won a contest and it's a contest to my fav brand. But all the closest people around me are unavailable for the event...

Perhaps I go alone? Find some random friend? Sell the tickets away?

"Coco Before Chanel"
26 August 2009, 7PM

Anyone?

2009-08-17T19:37:00.002+08:00

When we were Primary One..

Can you spot me?

The gathering was real fun, meeting classmates after 12 years. :)

2009-08-14T19:36:00.001+08:00

My 2nd Interview at KE today. Though I think the job is alright and very challenging, I'm worried about the bond. Most people say being tied down for 2 years is nothing. You get job security. The other group of people shared that the nature of the job would be very demanding and stressful and I may not like it. Hence with the bond, I would not be able to quit. I am considering negio a shorter bond period with a lower pay since they are paying a basic salary with bonus.

The lunch date with Godma yesterday was rewarding. Her initial plan did not work out as O is not employing. But we saw the director from U, I self-introduced myself and it ended off with me sending my CV to him. Though he demanded that I should get my license before I approach him and I should do it within a month.

And what do you think of me going over to help Godma as her assistant at U but I would not be paid by U. Rather she would compensate me on her part? I get to learn for them, study for the license and see the real trading taking place every day. I'm ok with no pay, I can survive. Or should I wait patiently for a job that is more stable.

In case you are lost, I am talking about me being a Stock Dealer.

On a happier note, I won the tickets to the preview of Coco before Chanel Movie!
Infor of movie found here: http://www.festivefilms.com/cocobeforechanel/index.htm

26 August 2009, 7PM!

More Jimmy's Books from Kino. (Love his pictorial books, I have almost his entire collection) Thanks to the 20% National Day Storewide. I must be a really good girl to buy only 3 books. I had to tell myself that I am still jobless so I placed back the rest of the books. Haa!

Finally I found Barbie Hsu's beauty book. It was sold out in Taiwan when I was there in 2007. And I could only get her 2nd book, I remembered paying S$10+ for it and was totally shocked to find that it is retailing at S$6 at Kino. Oh well...

I can't wait for tml's Pri Sch Gathering Chalet!!

Have a good weekend,
sab

2009-08-13T17:38:00.001+08:00

My Loot from Deepdiscount Arrived Today!

I reached home and tried my luck at the mail box. Saw the slip and rushed to Towner PO via foot to collect the 2 bulky parcel and walked all the way home! I am a super happy girl!

The MOVIE: COCO CHANEL - By Shirley MacLaine

The new movie (Coco Before Chanel) is releasing in the cinema soon... I wanna catch it!

I shall blog about today's lunch date with Aunty D tomorrow after the 2nd interview with KE. Wish me luck!

2009-08-13T10:44:00.000+08:00

KS called for a 2nd interview which I agreed. It would be held tomorrow. On the other hand, a lunch date with Aunty D today to discuss her suggestion of me going over to bank O. The plan is to start off as an assistant and move up to become a Remisier like her.

Anyhow, I was at School S again on Tuesday and finally I get to teach English! Had so much fun with the P1 class, they are just soo adorable.. It tempts me to become a teacher. Oh well.. this thought has been in my mind since 2005.. If I can't get a job by end of the year, I will jolly well become a teacher. Last Call..

I am glad that Paul has fully paid his sch loan and he is debt free now! (Other than the payment for this mac book) Well, I will stick by this belief of Pa that we only buy things that we can afford using present money. He paid everything in cash. No loan.. Haa.. The house, the car, my sch fee nd everything in the house.

Don't fall into the trap of credit card people!

I am going to send my Chanel in for repair today! Hope they are able to get it fix!

I can't believe I wipe out the whole stock of LC in Plum. Haha.. Oops!
And it is officially Out of Stock.

And the buyer refused to reply to my mail regarding payment. I filed a report on ebay and hope something can be done. Otherwise, I would lodge a unpaid strike on her account!!! But on the otherhand, this means I get to keep the bag for myself.. Oh well.. it's fated.

I'm haivng Jap Food today! Bye! :)

2009-08-11T01:56:00.003+08:00

Guess what?

L got me the contacts from my fav brand - C!!!

I am a super happy girl!

************************************

We went to NikeFactoryStore at West Coast Plaza because I have the 40% voucher from Kor. It was madness. The q was madness. Nothing much to buy because it was a mess. The shoes were in a mess, you found one but the other side is missing.

However I scored a pair of Special Edition running shoes, finally gotten that pink polo tee I wanted since long ago and a pair of purple shorts.

Paul's bro and friend came along as the discount was too hard to resist. After a good 2 hours of shopping + Q-ing, we bought 12 items in total.

Total bill was S$600+

with 40%, it became S$300+

The market value was S$1000++

Nike is earning too much man.

I need to call MOE tml, they are underpaying me!

PS: I am still unemployed :(

2009-08-10T11:40:00.001+08:00

[9 August 2009]

Paul's Buddy's Wedding Lunch at Marriott Hotel

I love my Chanel Drill Flap! First time carrying it out. Because the bag is soo soft, there is so fixed shape and the chain made it look crumpled. The chain can be quite heavy though. Received some stares from some girls. Anyhow it's a beauty! Hee

Great gathering, fun boys and there was a hunk at the pool side with superb abs. We go gaga over his body. While his wife is constantly eating nonstop with very fair skin tone. She looks well fab. Hee

I fall into the WAG group. It stands for Wives and Girlfriends. So I started chatting with the girlfriends of the boys. Friendly people. :)

The weather was hot, we were baked during the entire wedding lunch as it was held at the poolside. Left at 4+ and headed to ION with one of his friend + gf. Walked around till 6+ and my heels killed my feet. It was so tiring in that 3" pedder red heels. I stood throughout the wedding lunch as seats were limited. Eating, drinking and chatting while standing.

I will always remember this special occassion as it marks the first time meeting his Hall Mates. Interesting boys.

He is out playing soccer with them early this morning. Hope he will take me out today because it is a public holiday. Couldn't remember when was the last public holiday we went dating..

Hope we can pop by Ginza plaza as I have 40% discount vouchers off sales price from Kor. I want some tops and shorts. Perhaps a pair of running shoes! I need to pop by Kino to exchange a book because I gotten a similar book. 20% storewide ends today, so hurry people!

Tutu, go home quick and date me!

2009-08-08T21:07:00.000+08:00

Tutu, why are you so sweet? I was irritating him the whole afternoon and made him lost S$60. Yet he did not scold me and entertained my nonsense throughout the entire time we had today.

We had BK at the airport and he left for work while I made my way to town. Spent some time at Kino as they were having 20% storewide for this National Day and so I happily bought 3 Jimmy's pictorial books (I collect his books. Initially I picked up 5 of his latest books but I told myself not to spend so much as I am still jobless. I saw that the Chanel book was selling for S$100++ Deepdiscount was selling at only US$45. Shall wait till I am fully employed and I will indulge in Chanel. Then I went Checked out the stuff that I needed to check at Taka.

Afterwhich, I walked into Chanel. Don't panic! I was just there to check out if they could repair my bag to replace the missing crystal. And this very sweet SA nearest me told me to bring the bag down despite after I told her that I got it from UK. She said she would try her best to get it fix and just bring the bag down. And she opened the door for me to leave. Well done, Ms SA!

Then I went home.. BUT it was a terrible bus ride. I hate CHINA women. I decided to stand at one cosy corner but this CHINA GIRL came and stood next to me and squashed me to the corner. She was standing SOOO close to me with her skin touching my skin. I endured for 15minutes and when I couldn't take it anymore (as I think I am claustrophobic), I moved my elbow very close to her and finally she move away from me. Not long after, she alighted. Stupid China Girl. NEXT, this lady was carrying her trolley standing near me, when she alighted, she pull her trolley and the wheel rolled on my poor toe.. WTH... Can't stand these people!! And earlier, this girl was happily eating McFlurry on the train from CHANGI. I wanted to take down her picture and post online.. URGH..

I AM VERY EXCITED FOR TML! Tutu is taking me to his buddy's wedding dinner. I'm meeting his good friends, FINALLY! After 2 years.. Hee Hee..

Love,
A Very Happy Girl

2009-08-07T21:45:00.001+08:00

FOURTH INTERVIEW - FOURTH SALES JOB

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

I want to be employed soon. There are many activities I have not been doing for the longest time. I want to go for a good pedicure. My heels are cracking, there are blisters. It's super dry. In A MESS. :( My hair is in a mess too, it is soo dry. When was the last time I had my hair treatment done? Forget about the body massage, even though I am paying at such a low low price.

Transportation is so expensive now. I used to pay only $20 for MRT + Bus Concession at S$52 per month. Now I am paying S$20 for a week of transport + Cab fare when I get to teach at SA.

2009-08-06T12:14:00.000+08:00

Breakfast for today: Freshly Squeezed Orange Juice by Mr Tay, One bowl of Banana Crunch Ceral and Grapes

I have an interview tomorrow.. What do you think of a job as a trainee dealer? The down side is it comes with a 2.5 years bond inclusive of the training period. The initial income would be S$2k till I get my license to be an official dealer. Paul says go for it, after 2.5years the license would be handy and just quit if I am unhappy. Dad says go for it because he is very excited of the money it comes along.. Mummy says try.. Kenneth says it is an exciting job. all u do is to sit in front of the pc and buy and share everyday, he was soo sweet to forward the documents that I have to study everyday - Market Research , observation..

Me? I'm ok with the pay, the job seems interesting, challenging, exciting, stressing, fun, demanding, haa.. I just want a job. So that I can power dress.

[Photos]

He holds my hand on the bus and train.

He puts his hand on my lap on the bus.

He is love. (:

I really love this LongChamp bag in Dusty Pink.. But oh well..

AND It fits a Mac Book!

I love my floral butterfly sleeve top. Thanks ger! Haha I forced her to buy and in the end it became mine because she just couldn't wear it out.

And I wore my Black Skinny from Primark for the first time.. It makes me look slim hohoho It costs less than 8 Pounds. I should have bought more stuff from Primark if not for Paul. He made me stress shopping while waiting for me.. I can't wait to wear my little red ridding hood. That costs me only 8 POUNDS before VAT Refund.

I Heart Primark!

Trying to motivate him to study while I surf the net in the library. But he fell aslp after 30 mins.. -_-" Then we went home to nap.. HAHAHA

What are trying to do, dada?

On the left you can see Teddy and Fatty looking at their daddy.

On the right, you can see the big Selfridges Box on the floor and a big bag of branded paper bags from UK in that Pink Miu Miu Paper Bag.

2009-08-03T19:56:00.000+08:00

What a FUN Week!

Mon - Wed : School S = Extra pocket money. But I hate to teach Chinese. zzz

Thurs - Fri :

Sat : Pay Day from K and Q | Wedding Lunch - Paul's Man

Sun : Wedding Lunch - Paul's Buddy > VERY Exciting.. zzz

I am nervous, excited yet scared for the Sun's wedding lunch. He is taking me to his buddy's wedding. This would be the first time I'm meething them. OMG... I look so chubby now with lots of fats on my cheek. Thanks to the non-stop-snacking and paul for feeding me non-stop. HAA.. My skin is not in its best condition. I need to do mask from now till Sat. HELP.. But on the other hand, i am really looking forward. Ordered a dress and I hope I get to use my Chanel for the first time!

I shall eat less from now till friday. I ate a small plate of mee goreng and lots of veg in sch today. Snack is one small pack of chocolate. Dinner is Porridge.

Hope I look good on Sun. Make him Proud! (:

2009-08-02T23:38:00.001+08:00

~ H E L P ~

OMG!!!!!

A CRYSTAL IS MISSING FROM MY CHANEL BAG!!!

And I have NOT started using this bag. How did it fall off in the first place??

It will be in for repair after my first use. BUT the question is when is the first use? Haha

I AM VERY SAD

2009-07-31T01:46:00.002+08:00

2 0 1 2

I need a job before we can get to 2012!

I don't need a ring, I want a diamond braclet. But I don't mind a Hermes Birkins or Kelly in Black!! HAHA

Oh I have decided to sell that Dusty Pink bag. Someone wanted it.

Mola is more important now than looking pretty and being happy with a new bag.

I saw M at Novena today, he looks good in shirt.

For that 3mins, the feeling returns. And I was with Tutu. Sorry Tutu..

The Dinner was good and we had fun at Minds. We had the whole place to ourselves.

IT WAS SOOOO FUN

PS: I am still jobless.

2009-07-30T11:34:00.002+08:00

I kept the Dusty Pink and Bilberry for Myself!

L is awesome, he is getting me (*almost*) anything I want from London!

19 LC Bags fresh from London in 4 days via DHL!

Join my spree at http://princess-sab.livejournal.com

I can't wait for the Winter Sale! Hope I get to score a Prada or Miu Miu!

2009-07-22T01:14:00.002+08:00

It was today that I ran to him when something bad happened

I cried and he wiped my tears as they flow.

Burying my head into his chest felt really safe.

Patting me to calm me down, he kissed my forehead several times.

All I did was to cry.

He hugged me tight that I din wanna let go.
I just want to be in his arms, protected, understanding and peace.

I felt really sad for what happened today.

When communication fails, relationship breaks apart.

Why things that were so beautiful the night before became ugly and horrifying now?

Generation gaps can be THAT scary.

I must work really hard so that I would get my own flat in 2 years.

So that I would show to the evil soul that looked down on me since I understood life.

I would succeed in life far better than him.

I would earn much more money than him.

Don't you talk to me in such tone ever again.

I AM NOT YOUR SLAVE.

He is not the best, for you two thought he is.

I will be the best and make you regret how you refuse to protect your own child and let her be humilated by that evil soul.

You want money, Give me 2 years, I will repay you my tution fee. Then you shall not say that you have wasted the money on me.

In the end, No one understands how I feel.

Not even Paul.

I will be strong and fight this war myself.

I will prove to everyone that I am who I am.

2009-07-21T00:47:00.002+08:00

ICE AGE 3 is awesome. 4.5/5 Please go watch if you have not done so. You will laugh from the beginning till the end. A great movie for the whole family

Over the weekend, we went shopping at G2000 since they were having their annual sales and Citibank holder gets 25% extra. So we checked out the outlet store at Anchorpoint after lunch at Ikea. I got a gorgeous Wool Dark Chocolate jacket for S$49 - 25%. The quality is fabulous. Original retail price at S$249. Best buy, MUST Buy! The last 2 pieces available. Got 1 Blouse and a Shirt as well. Paul paid for the purchases.

I had my Electone repaired on Sunday. Spent a bomb on it! Paid S$240 to fix the sound. The LCD screen is damaged too. I was deciding between the Original Yamaha parts for S$300 and a 2nd hand for S$150. After survying many people, I have decided to get the Yamaha screen. The uncle is popping by next week. I forsee a big hole in my pocket.

I must say this boyfriend is rare, super rare. EXTINCT. He secretly transfered money to my account when he got his bonus over the weekend. I was shocked to see the amount. TODAY he made another transfer of a shocking amount so that I do not have to worry about fixing my Electone. How can I love him more? He says.. to eat my Vit C pills regularly and read more papers.. I am working hard dear!

Oh.. I m working hard to earn some extra cash so that I can still survive without a job. Been going to School S Primary (to protect myself and the school) to RT regularly.. The other day in that P2 class, one boy asked if I could help him tie his shoe laces becos he doesnt know how to do it. SOO CUTE!! I giggled but left him to tie it himself. Today, I spotted 3 Secondary students jumping over the fence to escape from the Primary school.

Should I join MOE? Yes? No? Yes No? I decided not..

This weekend is busy..

24 July - Convocation at 10am!
26 July - Liverpool vs Sg at National Stadium 7pm!!

Hope I get a job soon.. I went for 2 interviews last week but rejected them.. Me don't want sales jobs.

Pls call me tml morning and wake me from my dream.. I want that $90 so that I can repair my organ.. Maybe i should fix the speakers too.. S$180 each for Yamaha or S$90 each for non-Yamaha? 2 of them are broken.

2009-07-14T20:33:00.002+08:00

C is for Chanel

Chanel No. 5 for 070709

When I thought the Holiday is a fantastic present, Paul surprised me with this baby.

"Because you like it," Paul. (:

I Like You More Dear!

2009-07-08T23:47:00.003+08:00

I had fun going shopping, meeting friends for lunch / dinner, walking around in town, eating non stop, playing animal crossing, sleeping, random surfing, watching tv, going for a day trip with my parents to JB having a durian feast..

and a good 2 days holiday with Paul at Rasa, Sentosa, swimming under the sun for 2 days, playing luge, visiting underwater world after eons years, seeing pink dolphin for the first time, wearing a bikini for the first time in my life suntanning! ever since my UK trip.

I am growing fatter each day. I need to Stop eating.

Pa gave me S$50 bucks the other day so that I would stay at home and not roam on the streets.

Everyone is asking me if I have found a job. It's quite annoying.

Stop telling me to find a job. Because I will find and I AM FINDING one that I like. The pay is not important to me, I am more interested in finding one that interests me. I know what to do, stop telling me. PERIOD.

Though Paul says that I need not work if I really don't feel like working as long as I don't buy so much stuff, I know we are aiming to buy a flat in a few years so I should just find a job to grow that CPF bank.

He is really sweet, he got me Chanel No. 5 for 070709.

I tot he shouldn't get it since he has booked a room at Shangri-La.

"Because you like it."

Only the best, he said.

Thank You Love. (:

2009-07-03T08:49:00.005+08:00

Sorry! I'm (quite) Late.

Benjamin & Joanna

Rasa Sentosa, May 29, 2009

So the night before, Edna & I checked into Rasa Sentosa so that we can wake up early to help out on the actual day of the gate crash. Thanks to Ben for giving us a room. It's on him of course. Tsk Tsk. Check out the room! I forgot the room number but our room is located at Level 7. We din get to enjoy the facilities as we checked in the middle of the night after 12am. We had a balcony attached but only realised till the next day during our little afternoon break. This is NOT a Deluxe Suite. Room 856 belongs to the bride.

We were so hungry and there was NOTHING on the island that we could purchase. Haha.. Contemplating for quite a while before we decided to order the Room Service. The Club Sandwich that cost Ben S$20 ++.. oops! Sorry Ben, we were really very hungry. The fries are chunky and delicious. Then off to bed we went with a sheet mask on both our face at 3am? (:

On the actual day, Edna & I woke up late! We woke at 6am after receiving a morning call from the bride. We rush to shower, make up and dress up before popping to Room 856 for the gate crash. So the night before, we had decided how to tease Ben and his brothers. We came up with 4 stages:

(1) A Wakeup Drink - Raw Egg with Coffee (Egg complimentary from the Hotel) *Compulsory

(2) Using the boys' leg hair to form Joanna's name. We wanted to see them in PAIN but they were quite smart to use their falling hair but shaking their head.. zzzzz

(3) Ben to Choose Joanna's Fav Bra

(4) Ben to shout out loud what he loves about Joanna

And after playing for 45 minutes, they finally get to see each other. The bride made Ben promise a list before she allows him to remove the veil. Fierce bride.. haa

Back at home.

The Tea Ceremony

After the Tea Ceremony, We went back to Sentosa for the other Tea Ceremony from the Bride's side. Then we had 2 hour break before the dinner. Edna, Daryl and I decided to check out the balcony and we took some pictures. Thanks to Daryl for such wonderful shots.

The Solmenisation @ The Balcony in Room 856

The Dinner

Rasa Sentosa, The Pavilion

The Receptionists (:

From the Jie Mei to MC to the Receptionists

I have done it all at this special occassion. (:

I look rather stoned, too tired I guess =X

The Uncles Playing Around On Stage

The week before the wedding I was still holidaying in UK, I was not prepared for anything. Not even knowing that I would be the MC at the Wedding Dinner. On this special occassion, I am glad that I could be part of the whole wedding. I could see that a wedding can be soo tiring. But many times, I felt the happiness and the love from the couple. There was an urge to settle down! Haa.. I was touched by the wedding. But It is really tiring, rushing from one place to another. Changing outfit. Changing Role. I am proud to be part of this special event.

And No, I will not have a Wedding Dinner. A little garden is all I need. With lovely friends and family members being there to witness my special day with my special one. We would dine, laugh, giggle, drink and dance under the stars together in a small little garden. No pre-take photos, no fancy videos. A photographer to capture the real happiness of the event with the actual blessing from the guests. I love Real Life Shots. (:

Love, sab

2009-07-02T16:16:00.002+08:00

[Back Logged]

20 June 2009, Family Gathering

A KTV Session

@ Blk 51 Chai Chee

S$35 from 6.30-10.30pm!!! We had the whole room to ourselves with a staff to key in the songs of our choice. Lots of yummy food prepared and everyone had a great time! I spent most of the time eating, eating and eating. It was a day to celebrate Father's Day and a surprise Birthday Cake for my Cousin. Specially ordered from Angie's - Classic Yam. It's worth every single cent. After KTV, we went for supper at the Market. We had yummy Minched Pork Noodle Soup. How come everyone knows this place except me?? Even Paul and G!!!

My dad is soo engrossed into his singing that he refused to stop when we wanted a FULL family photo. The other uncles were also busy singing.. Hence only the cousins + Aunty took the photo. Oh I have a full KTV set at home. My dad used to sing every Sunday morning to wake me up.

Oh, my parents are soooooo romantic..

2009-07-01T16:38:00.001+08:00

Zara S$89.90

Nice hor? I like but I din't buy. Hope there will be a 2nd mark down.

2009-06-28T15:53:00.003+08:00

as i sit and watch him sleep, i realised he is working really hard at work and work can be so tiring for him.. i shall be good and not kick a big fuss over little things..

A told me to get a shop so that we can come out with something.. and in the car Bro HN keep telling me to be careful of C.. and when I asked if she did go to KL 2 weeks ago, he said she didn't.. Oh .. C, are you trying to hide away from me? I need the S$800 you owe me at this crucial moment..